Category Archives: Personal

Running From My Emotions

I tend to run away from my emotions. I don’t want to locate them in my body and I don’t want to name them and I don’t want to accept the message they’re sending me. I prefer to distract myself … Continue reading

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A Free Neck

When do I feel at ease? When I have a harmonious head, neck, back relationship. When my neck is free so that my head can release forward and up and my back can lengthen to widen, then I feel poised. … Continue reading

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My Subtle Low-Grade Depression

I went off nardil in 1999 without ill effect, but reading this Wikipedia paragraph makes me think that I have tendencies towards dysthymia aka subtle low-grade depression. When I get excited about something, my depression lifts, but when I have … Continue reading

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Intimacy Vs. Eroticized Rage

After he described his love life, his therapist asked, “Have you heard of the term eroticized rage?” “No,” he said, “but that rings true. I had a girlfriend, Holly, who said to me, ‘Take out all your rage at women … Continue reading

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Like A Serial Killer

In the final weeks of the longest live-in relationship of my life (three months in Orlando during the summer of 1993), my partner pushed me to try the drug recommendation of her psychiatrist Daniel Golwyn — nardil aka phenelzine — … Continue reading

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