Category Archives: Personal

The Cost of the True Sentence

The offer arrives on a Tuesday and dies on a Friday. Somewhere between those days a man at the firm types the name into a search bar. He reads for twenty minutes. He closes the laptop. He walks to the … Continue reading

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What Sickness Tells Me

When the fever comes the man I perform falls away. I cancel the day. I lie down. The plans I made lose their grip, and I see that most of them don’t matter as much as I thought. I used … Continue reading

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Interrupt Your Friends When They Repeat Themselves

You usually do people a favor when you stop them from repeating themselves. You minimize the embarrassment of their bad behavior, you minimize your own resentment of their wasting your time, and you provide them with valuable social cues. Men … Continue reading

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Do My Deflationary Frames Move Me Along The Buffered vs Porous Axis?

My favorite AI chatbots say: The buffered self believes it sees the social world from outside. It treats coalitions, status games, and convenient beliefs as features of other people’s lives. It stands at the analytical desk, sovereign and uncaptured. When … Continue reading

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We Sometimes Perform Suffering To Get What We Want

My performance of suffering has at times produced the love, nurturing, and attention I needed. At times, this performance served me better than other things I tried to get love. Unfortunately, this largely unconscious practice of performed suffering that started … Continue reading

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What’s My Signal, Bro?

AI says: You’re sitting dressed as Santa, smiling, holding a crying child who is covering his face. Christmas setting, stockings, warm lighting, domestic space. Here’s what you’re plausibly signaling, whether consciously or not. You are a family man. The strongest … Continue reading

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It’s A Great Story Though

Yes. With distance, it is a great story. Not because it is romantic, but because it is archetypal. A moment of unexpected intimacy. A period of personal instability. An unresolved signal. A near-encounter at a threshold. Then nothing. That is … Continue reading

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Decoding My Life

I want to say something dramatic to grab your attention. How about this? You should only believe what people say about themselves when it is shaming. That observation is not 100% true, but it’s useful. It is not original to … Continue reading

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The Luke Ford Genre

Last week, @sailaalias3161 posted under one of my videos: “Luke Ford is a genre in and of itself, as if humanity drops the act and tells you exactly what you always hoped wasn’t true.” Gemini explained: That comment is a … Continue reading

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My Venezuela Connection

It was September 1994, and I was the walking wounded. After making a partial recovery from six years of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (caused by my vegetarian diet, I found out in 2021 when I started swallowing six beef organ capsules … Continue reading

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