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My Struggle In Orthodox Judaism

Luke Ford discovers he has Histrionic Personality Disorder aka Narcissistic Personality Disorder. He reflects on how this affected him as he tried to make his way in Orthodox Judaism in Pico-Robertson 90035, making himself a pariah in many of the … Continue reading

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I’m Often Flooded With Rage & Despair

I’ve never had emotions that prevented me from doing whatever was before me. That said, I’ve been feelings these tidal waves of rage and despair the past few weeks. I thought at first they were related to my therapy, readings, … Continue reading

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My Journey Into Orthodox Judaism

I first walked into an Orthodox shul (Knesset Israel Torah Center) in Sacramento in early 1993 on a Sunday morning to take a conversion to Judaism class with friends. The rabbi looked at me walking in with a yarmulke on … Continue reading

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Orthodox Judaism Vs Pagan Pleasures

I try to figure out my contradictory travels over the past 20 years. How did I embrace Judaism on the one hand and pagan pleasures on the other? Was I self-destructive or just trying to consume as much of life … Continue reading

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A Frustrating Day

I went to my mail box this morning to pick up my tax forms from my accountant and they’re not what I’ve been getting for 15 years. I leave angry emails and phone calls with my accountant and get an … Continue reading

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