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Is Donald Trump A Traitor To His Class?

Comments to Steve Sailer:

* There seems to be one NFL coach who views white players as underpriced due to bias. Of course, he also has the most anti-social, ruthless personality (and the most Super Bowl rings).

* It’s not that Trump is “a traitor to his class”.

It’s that Trump will do what supposedly cannot be done.

We supposedly cannot build an effective fence on our Mexican border, but Trump will build one.

We supposedly cannot fix our birth-right citizenship, but Trump will fix it.

We supposedly cannot ever start a court-martial of Bowe Berdahl, but Trump will start one.

And so on and so forth.

Trump will accomplish many simple governmental tasks that are supposedly impossible.

Trump will negotiate with the US Congress.

The time is coming for a pragmatic, can-do Presidency.

* A lot of people are sneering at Trump because he is so over exposed on reality TV. I am sure there are many also ran’s who complained just as bitterly about FDR using the radio or Kennedy being telegenic.

* I don’t get this idea that Trump isn’t going to win the GOP primary. He is leading in every state, mostly by double digits. He is the only candidate who draws large crowds, showing the type of dedication you need to win caucus states where people have to spend as much as 4 hours to vote.

The Great Koch Hope Scott Walker has dropped down to less than 5 in most polls now. Jeb is hated by much of the base and run an extremely inept campaign, doubling down his defenses of amnesty and the Iraq Attaq.

The idea the GOP Establishment has some strategy up its sleeve to beat him is BS. They already threw RACIST! at him dozens of times with the complete cooperation of the media. It failed. He hates women and veterans also was a flop. a secret liberal who gave money to Hillary likewise failed. What exactly is left to hit him with?

* I think it was Steve Sailer himself who remarked upon the appointment of the new Federal Reserve chairman that the absence of Gentiles in the position as of late was part of a trend which confers a convenient pretext to accuse advocates of tighter regulation of billionaires of anti-Semitism.

* So far the Republican establishment has tried to go after Trump by saying “OMG he’s racist!” which explains why he has gone up so much in the polls.

Eventually they’ll come up with an attack angle that is effective, (expect some variation of “New York liberal Donald Trump”), the billionaire backers will make sure that message is on the airwaves 24/7, and eventually a majority of the Republican electorate will relent and vote for JEB or whoever.

* What I don’t get is the smear that claims Trump is “tacky.” To my best lights, Trump is no tackier than Hillary Clinton, Bill Clinton, Barack Obama, John “Weepy” Boehner, Joe Biden, Jeb Bush, Oprah Winfrey, Al Sharpton, Fauxcahontas, most of Enemedia-Pravda’s mercenary talking heads, and lots of other Establishment figures whom Enemedia-Pravda claim to be possessed of “gravitas.”

These are the United States. We invented tacky – it’s inseparable from our American culture. Even Enemedia-Pravda approach Imminvasion, Global Warming, elections, and everything other matter as if its talking heads are the celebrity judge panel on The Gong Show.

* Douthat attracts some of the worst commenters- just obnoxious, always missing the point, unnecessarily rude. Since he’s basically Sailer-lite, it’s interesting to imagine how an average Sailer blog post would be received by that crowd. I think most wouldn’t understand it, or would be so offended by the trees they’d miss the forest.

* One of Trump’s great qualities is his sense of humor. He’s just very funny. People have a good time at his meetings.

Kaus points out that this email thing is so technical and tedious, but Trump found a way around that – focus on the Wiener.

* I think Trump’s basic mindset is blue collar American. Blue collar guys are not ideological. They are “Let’s get this damn thing done.” They are finished product kind of guys and gals, not their children who talk endlessly and aren’t people of action.

* The fundamental beliefs of evangelicals set them up perfectly to be SJWs;the pathological altruism, and naïveté, the doctrine of we are all God’s children therefore we must be equal in all respects etc. How many evangelicals are adopting Africans, ministering to 3rd Worlders, providing sanctuary and assistance to illegals, holding joint church services with black churches?
Latinos are probably now the biggest source of converts for evangelicals. Drive around Southern California and see how many evangelical churches have their signs entirely in Spanish.

* Absent plastic surgery, or truly remarkable genes, the physical differences between a healthy and attractive woman of 44 and that same woman seven years later are generally stark. The (natural) physical indicia of her nubility are simply depleted, by her early fifties, even if they had remained quite pleasantly noteworthy at 44. Even in men, the differences can be quite stark. When I look at pictures of my father from 1960, at age 39, still looking boyishly handsome, and then compare them to pictures from only five or six years later, I am amazed at how quickly he turned into an older man.

* There is this (he believes he is conservative) liberal Jewish radio host [Dennis Prager?] who comes on in the morning in LA – who endlessly trashes Trump as a buffoon. He finally said something that made sense:

He has no chance according to my circle of associates.

I didn’t want to waste and time and try and send him a message as to why that was so ridiculous.

* The GOP establishment is going to line up behind Trump as soon as they realize that a massive white turnout will be elect a whole lot of Republican senators, congressmen, governors etc. The Republican party is about more than just winning the presidency.

* Anyone running for POTUS who calls Anthony Weiner a “perv” deserves my vote.

* BTW, there were some laughs by lefties at Trump’s expense yesterday, because a Bloomberg reporter tried to ambush Trump Palin-style by asking him what his favorite Bible passage is (because Trump calls it his favorite book on the campaign trail). Now, of course Trump probably hasn’t read the Bible in years, but he’s no Palin. He handled the question pretty smoothly. Can’t stump the Trump.

* Some of the liberal policy suggestions for Trump are actually quite clever (any maybe more clever than the people suggesting them realise).

For example, someone in a Stale article suggested Trump should promote a watered-down European-style medical system with free medicare for the over 50s (thus attracting working class support without unduly alienating the middle class).

Electorally that could work on multiple levels. Over 50s Americans are more likely to be white, hence be adopting such a policy he could attract elderly and moderately liberal white voters and immigration restrictionists without being seen to be racist.

* The green card printers ran night and day. We were that close to going out forever. But there was one man who taught us to fight, to vote the bums out of office, to smash those Liberal m*****f*****s into junk. He turned it around. He brought us back from the brink.

His name is Trump. Donald Trump.

* Yes, time for the loser Jeb!! to drop out of the race to give more oxygen to the more plausible opponents of Trump. But I don’t mind watching Jeb!! twist slowly in the wind, either. The photo on Drudge last night was a classic: Jeb!! standing in the foreground looking dejected, his back to a small group of supporters in folding chairs, a few of them fat middle-aged couples and one odd duck with a a long beard. It reminded me of a Diane Arbus photo.

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Steve Sailer: French Intellectual Sniffs Out Anti-Semitic “Zombie Catholicism” Behind Paris “Charlie Hebdo” Marches for Secularism

Steve Sailer writes:

It’s fascinating how the reigning philosophical discourse in the 21st Century has become simply:

1. Puncher-downers … bad.

2. Puncher-uppers … good, even when they punch-up with AK47s against cartoonists and shoppers.

3. Don’t you dare question our definitions of who are the puncher-uppers and who are the puncher-downers, you racist puncher-downer, you. We know who should be the who and who should be the whom, and if you question us, you deserve to wind up a whom…

Todd is an expert about how traditional family ties in Christendom explain current political views, but similar analysis of Jews is basically not done.

For example, the triple bankshot ideologies of Todd’s kinsman Levi-Strauss, along with those of Marx and Freud, were subjected to an intentionally New York Jewish intellectual-style analysis in the 1974 book The Ordeal of Civility by Irish-American New York academic John Murray Cuddihy.

But you’ve probably never heard of that book because a gentile analyzing hugely influential Jews qua Jews is unimaginable. Jewish intellectuals very much do not like their own tools of analysis being applied to themselves. Turnabout may be fair play, but it’s also, to be frank, zombie Catholicism.

A huge amount of intellectualizing consists of triple bankshots made up by Jewish intellectuals to rationalize primal emotions they feel. Their triple bankshots (bomb Libya abroad, lay down to Muslim inundation at home, or whatever) frequently don’t make much sense in non-emotional terms, but they very much do not like gentiles applying Occam’s Razor to their triple bankshots.

Comments to Steve Sailer:

* Two points on Todd:
1) The Charlie Hebdo marches were a weird of mix spontaneous feeling and politico-mediatic orchestration. Nominally for free speech and “tolerance,” the next day the government arrested the comedian Dieudonné for “hate speech.” In short, the French government is subsidizing anti-Muslim blasphemy and is persecuting anti-Holocaust-Industry blasphemy. Nor was there any recognition that shutting down Islamic immigration could limit these problems in the future or that the FN had a point and should be allowed to participate in democratic politics. The government also exploited the incident to pass more surveillance legislation. There is nothing good about these sheep-like demonstrations and on the contrary shows the government’s ability to rally people around a somewhat authoritarian, faux-patriotic, and censorious agenda. I think the latter is what disturbs Todd about “Je Suis Charlie.”

2) Todd has been roundly mocked for his unbelievably obtuse pseudo-explanation of the “Charlie” phenomenon and is basically a very, very roundabout way of avoiding any mention of Jewish ethnocentrism in French politics. Said ethnocentrism however largely explains the double standard on insulting the Prophet vs. the Shoah.

* Jews think that 1950s era America, which defeated Nazi Germany and prosecuted the perpetrators of the Holocaust just a few years earlier, was also deeply anti-semitic.

* You seem to be flirting with Kevin MacDonaldism, where the Eternal Jew is always pushing Jewish interests at the expense of everyone else.

Now, no doubt many Jews advocate for Jewish interests. But what is your support for the idea that anti-white Jews somehow can’t just be self-hating ethno-masochists like other white ethnic groups? Why is it when a Jew advocates his country to be inundated with Muslims, it is some convoluted “triple bankshot” to advance Jewish interests, but not when Italians or Swedes do the same?

If you want to apply Occam’s razor here, it is that French half-jews like Todd that advocate France be overrun with Arabs and black muslims that hate jews, they do it because they are, at best, indifferent to the country being overrun by anti-semites who will attack Jews on the streets and vote in George Galloway types who want to BDS Israel into a South Africa type pariah state.

* The NYT had a very insidious reportage of Trump deporting Ramos from that room which summed up the way Jews have corrupted public discourse:

“The 30-minute news conference Mr. Trump presided over in Iowa on Tuesday night was the purest distillation of the psychological quirks and emotional idiosyncrasies that have made his candidacy such an irresistible spectacle — at times repellent, but often riveting.”

Gosh, psychological quirks and emotional idiosyncrasies—well but of course everyone thinks of Woody Allen when they see Trump on the stump.

* I remember reading when I was a young man about some adult clubs in Paris that featured frottage, basically some guy would come out onstage and some woman would come out, well-versed, as Voltaire would say, in the science of hydraulics and sufficient reason, and through the expert application of friction and manual pressure, would achieve tremendous distances for the resulting ejaculation. Triple bank shot, indeed.

Quite a lot of intellectual activity is focused on justifying some emotional attachment, or some some irrational conception. Quite a lot. Of course none of us are immune, so, if you want to be rational you have to be detached, and you also have to make sure that emotionally you are in a good place. Good writing and good thinking come mostly from being in a good mood.

* Aside from the pleasure of ratiocination, is there some goal that “analyzing hugely influential Jews qua Jews” serves?

It isn’t as if analysis of “Jews qua Jews” doesn’t happen. Sure, it is a disreputable activity, but there is no shortage of smart people like MacDonald doing it.

Whatever the ostensible goal, the actual effect of “analyzing hugely influential Jews qua Jews” seems to have is offending and alienating a highly intelligent, moral, and influential group of Americans, and prolonging the evil taint Nazism attached to what was once a humane, influential, and progressive eugenics movement.

Aside from all that, I find it sort of tiresome and boring as well. The question of the percentage of Jewish Bolsheviks, their relative responsibility for the ’65 immigration act and 70′s feminism, and the other questions that preoccupy MacDonaldists for me are not very interesting as historical questions compared to, say, Roman history, or 17th century England. Nor do they seem relevant to issues confronting our present and future: how do block amnesty at home, elect the Donald president, and stop the exponentially growing stream of refugees from the Third World from destroying the First.

* Puncher-downers are good when they’re Jews punching down on ‘white trash’.

Puncher-uppers are bad when they are middle class white challenging Jewish privilege.

* When I start typing “mondoweiss” into the Google query box (private browsing tab/no cookies) it auto-prompts me with “mondoweiss hate site” as the 1st suggested search query. Isn’t that redundant? If people were trying to answer the basic question of “What is the site / Is it a [sic] hate site” wouldn’t they just Google the 1st term? The only way these suggestions would emerge organically would be a semi-collaborative googlebomb effort in order to provoke the artificially-intelligent search cache into believing that “[x] hate site” was a practically useful subcategory or refinement of searches on [x] — which it isn’t, in the Western civilization sense (cf. also the auto-prompt “steve sailer racist”).

If Google espoused some kind of laissez-faire Prime Directive about the low-grade hacking of the suggested search by aggrieved partisans, that would be one thing. But they don’t — in fact they blacklist web sites who “game” the results order (albeit rarely). The manipulation would be simple to fix from an engineering standpoint; “Microsoft racist” is not a case of someone mistyping an intended search for “Microsoft,” after all, and it’s not a hit song or new smartphone, so there’s no utility gained by suggesting it. The presence of these prejudicial auto-prompts belies Google’s stated libertoid mission that they just wanna Organize Information For Make Great Benefit Global Community. Ironically I guess it makes it less work for fans of racism to socialize online w/ other fans.

* Since the French have passed laws against ‘Holocaust denial’ (as well as other ‘thought crimes’ and ‘speech crimes’) , and indeed the (nominally) conservative Sarkozy expressed support for a law against denying the ‘Armenian genocide’, the French could probably go some way to ameliorating their problem with radical Islam (surely some muslims have been smart enough to notice the hypocrisy) by enacting a law against denigrating ‘the Prophet’. And this would not be inconsistent with their propensity for ideological tyranny — as noted above.

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Black vs White Test Scores

Steve Sailer writes: “Blacks who are the children of college graduates average 274, which is the same as whites who are the children of high school dropouts.”

“At the high school dropout level, The Gap in math is 16 points, but at the college graduate level, The Gap is twice as large: 32 points. That’s the opposite of what the conventional wisdom would imply.”

* A related thought in re the Vester Flanagan incident. I believe it will last in both the collective unconscious but more importantly in the collective conscious. Everyone knows it was typical, not anomalous, which is why it will be so symbolic and resonant. After all, he IS the black male. Everyone knows him in every firm in every industry in America: a black guy who presents well, dresses well, is “articulate”, enthusiastic and usually charming. EVERYONE wants him to succeed. EVERYONE tries to help him. However sooner or later it becomes apparent that something is missing. It’s probably a function of IQ but it seems to present itself more as a kind of blur in the brain, a lack of focus that somehow prevents him from doing the one thing he was hired to do, whatever that is. At first it’s laughed of, then excuses are made, then it’s viewed with sadness, but finally all realize that he’s no good, he can’t do the work on time at the professional level required, and the excuses run out. He just doesn’t belong there. Of course he senses this, and soon comes to believe his “failure” is an expression of racism when in fact his employment is a pure example of anti-racism, of naive faith in something called diversity., which is meant to heal but ultimately only harms. The helping hands that have been extended him are forgotten; he retreats, becomes surly, more obnoxious, refuses to socialize except with other blacks (who may be at different stages of the same process) and thus you have current racist reality: a completely worthless employee drawing a high salary who is treacherous, malicious, bitter, angry, aggressive and almost impossible to fire. Most won’t got to guns like the vile bitch Vester, but they will degrade and ultimately destroy the institutions that reached out to them. One might even become president of the United States. And here’s what can be done about them: Nothing.

* Black children from the wealthiest families have mean SAT scores lower than white children from families below the poverty line.
Black children of parents with graduate degrees have lower SAT scores than white children of parents with a high-school diploma or less.

* Generally Steve covers stories that are either ignored by the MSM, or he covers stories that they carry, but from a different POV. The Roof story was, and is being handled like it’s on steroids by the MSM. There probably isn’t much more Steve could add.

* Why are you anti-racists whining about historical slavery that ended, here, one hundred and fifty years ago, while doing nothing yourselves to end contemporary slavery in the world, today?

* I wonder what percentage of the Black population in the U.S will try to sue either an individual White person or a White owned business at least once in their lifetime? It is the ghetto lottery for Black people. A lot of Blacks dream of one day becoming wealthy off of claiming false racial discrimination.

* Related. Via Megan Mcardle. What she describes as “a team of superstar economists,” ran a $1 million experiment where they paid parents to do homework with their children. From the abstract:

“This intervention had large and statistically significant positive impacts on both cognitive and non-cognitive test scores of Hispanics and Whites, but no impact on Blacks. These differential outcomes across races are not attributable to differences in observable characteristics (e.g. family size, mother’s age, mother’s education) or to the intensity of engagement with the program.”

McArdle says, “There’s a long section where the researchers look for possible explanations, but they don’t really come up with any. I’m afraid I can’t, either. ”

It’s a mystery!

* “lead paint” — When was the last time anyone painted with lead paint? Outlawed decades ago. And why is it that only black children eat lead paint? And why don’t tacit black parent/s prohibit the eating of paint? The addiction of leftist/progressive thought can only be cured by allowing the first tenet of the 12 step plan, recognize you have a problem.

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More Good Publicity For Jews

I don’t hear about this sort of thing among WASPs.

REPORT: In a bizarre case over a grandmother’s Bar Mitzvah gift for her grandson, a 20-year-old man successfully sued his own mother for the $5,000 promised to him when he became a man in the Jewish faith at age 13.

On Tuesday, a judge ruled that Jordan Zeidman was entitled to a $5,000 Bar Mitzvah gift from his grandmother — known to the family as “Baba” — that his mother was apparently holding for his college fund. Zeidman’s parents divorced in 1998 and agreed to both contribute to their son’s college fund, according to Nassau County judge Scott Fairgrieve’s ruling.

Among the evidence Fairgrieve cited was Zeidman’s testimony that at his Bar Mitzvah in October 2007, his grandmother said, “I have $5,000 for you. Just like I gave to your brother, and sister. And I’m going to give it to your mom to hold for you.”

Additionally, in 2006, Zeidman’s mother had made a deposit into the college fund and included a handwritten note reading, “I owe Jordan $190.00 + $5,000 from Baba.”

The mother testified that she doesn’t remember writing this note and denied ever receiving the money from Zeidman’s grandmother.

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Oliver Sacks RIP

Comments to Steve Sailer:

* Wow, you got in a few substantive posts in last night/early morning. I wonder what your sleep pattern is?

I find people’s sleep pattern fascinating. IMO, more high energy the less sleep needed. I don’t think it’s directly related to intelligence, though high energy people usually are intelligent. Nikola Tesla, high energy and rail thin, would sleep just 2 hours a night with brief naps throughout the day (polyphasic). Donald Trump, Martha Stewart, Tony Robbins, Jay Leno, and Madonna sleep 4 hours per night. So did Thomas Edison and Margaret Thatcher. Bill Clinton sleeps 5 to 6 hours per day. Winston Churchill about the same.

* Steve Sailer: I now need about 8.5 hours of sleep to be at my best at blogging, which is a very self-starting thing. On the other hand, as a night person I often get either better or more slapdash as the hour gets later.

Clinton told an interviewer he needed 7 hours per night to be at his best.

* I had never really connected the dots about Sacks’s homosexuality (not that I really ever gave any thought to it) but in one of his valedictory pieces in the NY Times written after he learned that he was terminal he mentioned that his gayness had caused him to become alienated from his Orthodox Jewish parents.

In retrospect he displayed many characteristics of the gay drama queen. He was popular among the general public but most people in his scientific field absolutely detested his self aggrandizing approach. One critic called him “The Man Who Mistook His Patients for a Literary Career”.

Nabokov had a complicated relationship with gayness – publicly he was a homophobe but Nabokov’s brother Sergei (only 11 months apart) was gay and died in a Nazi concentration camp.

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What Is My Role In The World?

* “What is the role that God has assigned me in the world? Hold my answer until I have completed the Ninth Step (amends). Everything we want is on the other side of the Ninth Step. The first nine steps are in the world of stuff. The next three steps are in the world of the spirit. There is a calm when you turn your life over to God.” (HerbK)

* Chaim Amalek: “You have a history of exposing the underside of every movement/activity you have attached yourself to. Porn. Torah Judaism. And, one day soon, White Nationalism. And then you will turn to 12-step programs.”

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Are The Chinese Driving African Migration?

Steve Sailer writes: “Africa is an enormous amount of land that traditionally wasn’t fully exploited. Francis Galton suggested 142 years ago that the Chinese would make far more off African land than Africans would.

But now there are a billion Africans, so they have to be redomiciled somewhere if the Africa is to be most profitably exploited.”

Comments to Steve Sailer:

* Part of the process driving Africans off agricultural land and into the cities is western-style education. Once Africans get a primary school education, they feel they are too good to work the land as peasants anymore and head off to the overcrowded cities where there is absolutely nothing for them to do. So some far from marginal land lays fallow in Africa because of a lack of rural labor while African cities overflow with unemployed with nothing to do. The Chinese are probably now stepping in to exploit the best of this underutilized land.

Some nations such as Belgium allowed the elite of Africa to study at their universities. These Africans almost never moved back to Africa after graduation but because of the selection process, they ended up becoming serviceable citizens within a European context. Which only resulted in Europeans lowering their guard and they are now ideologically unable to resist the current invasion of very much non-elite Africans.

* At the moment, for Europe it is important — vital — to stop what is happening now — not to analyze the reasons for it (albeit this is not unimportant). Direct action is required — not a lot of thinking and analyzing and debating.

Already Germany expects two cities the size of Leipzig to arrive this year (and this number will probably rise) — all 3rd world muslims and Africans.

Denmark — Dänemark — Asylanten-integration gescheitert

Attempts to integrate refugees and asylum seekers in Denmark have completely failed (what a surprise).

75% of those who arrived 10 or more years ago are still unemployed. They are unemployable, a permanent burden on taxpayers — a free life in a nice, white country.

* We are blind: mass immigration into the US and EU driven by land appropriation in Mexico and Africa. Of course, the pundits are now claiming that all those African immigrants (colonialists) entering Europe are really middle class people with middle class skills, so not to worry.

A century ago, mechanization of American agriculture drove both Whites and Blacks off the land into the cities, too. Burgeoning industrialization absorbed them, in part because the skills needed in the factories weren’t all that great nor all that different than what a farm worker had. Globalization has reversed American industrialization and created a large, truly surplus (not Marx’s lumpenprolitariat) worker population. A significant fraction of China’s rural population moved to industrializing cities, also.

Reportedly, China has purchased quite a bit of Ukrainian farmland in the western part of the country. Could that be a contributor to the civil war now underway there?

* Makes me think of how the first anthropologists into Africa called those hunter-gathers the original affluent society, since they only had to “work” a few hours a week killing big game to survive. The rest of life was oh so easy. Which recalls Pat Moynihan’s deafening remonstration regarding Africa’s inability to feed itself, considering that growing food is the first thing we learned to do when we “came down out of the trees.” City life ill-fits their proclivities. Africa simply can’t feed itself well enough. Foreign aid should be per herds of cattle.

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The Fear Inventory

Here are my notes and musings from Tuesday night’s Fourth Step workshop with HerbK:

Resentment is the biological survival instinct of anger. Fear is the biological survival instinct of survival. Dishonesty is the biological survival instinct of freezing and hiding. Fright, fight or freeze. These are our basic instincts.

There is no workshop for the fear inventory. The resentment inventory is the most thorough and analytical.

The Big Book penetrates to the unconscious, we’re getting under our perceptions to get to the lens through we look out.

You can identify your beliefs by tracking when you use the word “should.”

The Fourth Column in the Resentment inventory shows my part. It blows up resentment. Where am I holding on to memories as a hot coal? Why am I holding on to this suffering? There is nobody else responsible for my anger, my resentment, my feelings.

Fear touches every aspect of our lives. There are two natural fears — fear of loud noises and fear of falling. Every other fear is acquired and we can unlearn it. Our feeling of fear is real, but the subject of our fear might not be.

Make a list of your fears. Say the Setaside prayer. Think about your fears and then feel your fears. Anxiety is just a form of fear. First do a spontaneous fear inventory and then go to the third column of your resentment inventory to see how my life has been hurt. Go back to earliest consciousness. What did I fear? From age 0-5, what did I fear? From 6-10, what did I fear? 11-15? etc. Do I still have childhood fears? The work here is about present fear and present resentment. If you don’t currently have the fear and resentment, it does not belong on your inventory. Fears and resentments are obstacles to living in the sunlight of the spirit.

If I tell the truth, I can no longer manipulate people. Why do I get my internal sense of validation from manipulating people to see me in a certain way? Why do I have to create in you who I want to be and then I can believe it too? I was a hardcore narcissist, self-obsessed, insensitive to others and to their needs. Therapy and medication can’t treat narcissism. It is impenetrable but 12 Step work can change you. The change is done to us. We submit to a process and we are transformed. Fears and resentments are clouds blocking the sunlight of the spirit.

What is the role that God has assigned me in the world? Hold my answer until I have completed the Ninth Step (amends). Everything we want is on the other side of the Ninth Step. The first nine steps are in the world of stuff. The next three steps are in the world of the spirit. There is a calm when you turn your life over to God.

DSM-5 criteria for narcissistic personality disorder include these features:

Having an exaggerated sense of self-importance
Expecting to be recognized as superior even without achievements that warrant it
Exaggerating your achievements and talents
Being preoccupied with fantasies about success, power, brilliance, beauty or the perfect mate
Believing that you are superior and can only be understood by or associate with equally special people
Requiring constant admiration
Having a sense of entitlement
Expecting special favors and unquestioning compliance with your expectations
Taking advantage of others to get what you want
Having an inability or unwillingness to recognize the needs and feelings of others
Being envious of others and believing others envy you
Behaving in an arrogant or haughty manner

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