Nardil Saves Lives

I just finished reading the 2012 biography of author David Foster Wallace. He received great help from the medication Nardil and less than a year after he went off it in 2007, he committed suicide.

I was largely bedridden from 1988-1993, but around September of 1993, I started on Nardil and felt immediate benefit. Within a few months, I was strong enough to resume two-thirds of a normal life.

According to Wikipedia: “Phenelzine is used primarily in the treatment of major depressive disorder (MDD). Patients with depressive symptomology characterized as “atypical”, “nonendogenous”, and/or “neurotic”, have been reported to respond particularly well to phenelzine.[1] The medication has also been found to be useful in patients who do not respond favorably to first and second-line treatments for depression, or are said to be “treatment-resistant”.[2] In addition to being a recognized treatment for major depressive disorder, phenelzine has been found in studies to be effective in treatingdysthymia,[3] bipolar depression (BD),[4] panic disorder (PD),[5] social anxiety disorder (SAD),[6]bulimia,[7] and post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD).[8]”

I went off Nardil without any ill effect in 1999.

In 2001 and 2002, I went on clonidine, clonazepam and lithium. In 2006, I tried out wellbutrin for about a year. I went off all meds a couple of months into my Alexander Technique teacher training (in March of 2009) without any ill effect.

From page 52 of this Wallace biography:

Wallace stayed at the psychiatric unit at Carle Hospital for several weeks. The doctors likely considered the possibility that he suffered from bipolar disorder, manic depression. That he was crashing after an enormously productive spring would lend credence to that diagnosis, but they decided instead to give him Nardil, a MAO inhibitor often used to treat atypical depression. Atypical depression — its key characteristics are unusual sensitivity to social rejection and a quick return to mental health when circumstances improve — was a more welcome diagnosis in Wallace’s eyes. It seemed less a sentence of insanity than the medical acknowledgment of a condition he was already dealing with. But Nardil…was an older antidepressant, 1960s and ’70s staple that came with many dietary prohibitions. He would no longer be able to eat chocolate or drink coffee, nor should he drink alcohol or take drugs…

The Nardil helped Wallace quickly. By August he was out of the hospital and on a kind of high.

I felt a substantial improvement within hours of taking my first Nardil pill (on a Saturday morning, I believe). I felt a developing strength and hope that day as a friend picked me up and drove me to synagogue. I was able to hang out longer in the real world without crashing.

Another major theme in Wallace’s life story that I share is the help he got from 12-step programs.

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Pico-Robertson 90035 Drama

UPDATE: JEWISH JOURNAL

Shlomo Walt posts: There are cops all over my street and Pico Robertson blocking my way home. Grand Theft Auto suspect. All ways blocked. Man with a gun at large in the neighborhood. Be careful!

A woman called the cops after a man entered the office above Pat’s with a gun. He ran into a house on my street.

Get the latest from this twitter account: https://twitter.com/BHScanner (with latest on top):

LIVONIA CP: K9s along 1400 Blk of Livonia and Crest (in backyards) conducting search.

LIVONIA CP: Possible 3rd K9 unit en rte (two o/s working inside perimeter). Containment extended to Crest w/ floater on Durango.

LIVONIA CP: Per dispatch, call came in of dude w/o shirt walking thru carport on Cashio.

LIVONIA CP: Making announcement on PA in moments that K9 search about to begin. LAPD Air 18 handing off to Air 10.

LIVONIA CP: More units coming to work containment. K9 o/s. Airship remains overhead. Unk if suspect is armed.

LIVONIA CP: Possible suspect in backyard on 1400 Blk Crest Dr (per housekeeper).

…(worse then usual for this hour) between Robertson & Beverly Dr, Pico & Airdrome. Avoid area.

LIVONIA CP: It’s a waiting game. Unless dude comes out and give up, K9 will have to sniff him out. Traffic is baaad…….

LIVONIA CP: K9 en rte from academy. GTA was at Crest & Pickford. Containment: Livonia from Pico 2 Cashio & Alcott from Robertson to Livonia

LIVONIA CP: Suspect wanted for GTA. Airship has containment set. Waiting for K-9 to flush dude out.

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Another Inspiring Story About My Work Ethic

Boss: “Are you working?”
Luke: “Yes.”
Boss: “What are you working on?”
Luke: “This protein bar.”

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Tinder Is My Favorite Dating App

To separate the wheat from the chaff on Tinder, my first question is always, “Have you read any good books lately?” So far I’ve had four interesting online conversations but no dates. I’m searching 18-40yo within ten miles.

I’m not asking that question because I want to discuss books with girls. I ask the question to winnow people out. Those who aren’t interested in the question are not ones I can spend time with because they bore me.

I have never been with a woman who did not enjoy reading books. Even the porn stars I dated love to read books.

I love it that all these people who’ve never used Tinder are coming out of the woodwork to instruct me that Tinder is a hook-up app.

Tinder is a form of technology like a phone or a fax. It is what you make of it. Why are all these people instructing me about Tinder when they’ve never used it? There’s just a vibe I give out that I’m stupid, please set me straight.

I only click on white girls. I’ve talked to four girls so far and all have been smart and accomplished, so smart that they have not gone out with me yet.

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Fearing The Different And Strange Is Healthy

We all prefer people who are genetically close to us and we all are uncomfortable and stressed at dealing with people who are genetically different from us. The more a community is racially homogenous, the more social capital, and the more racially diverse it is, such as Los Angeles, the less people cooperate. Preferring your own kind is healthy and so is fear of the stranger. Whites talk about the joys of diversity but in their choices of where they live, work, socialize and worship, whites, just like every racial group, prefer to stick to their own kind, and the more they are forced to be with different races, the more unhappy and stressed they get.

Ergo, I don’t think this smoking hot French politician Anne-Sophe should get nine months in jail for calling another politician an ape. It’s not right when hot babes are punished for derogatory things they say about the ugly.

I wonder how much jail time I would get in France for my blog? As long as I can share a cell with Anne-Sophie, I don’t care how long I get.

When Israel is accused in the UK parliament of war crimes, I think of it as a perverse compliment. A rational and human reaction to a tiny high-achieving people is to try to tear them down. Nobody berates the Arabs for being savage because nobody expects much from them. Once you understand that this tiny people, the Jews, have had more influence on history and probably more influence on the now than any other people, it stops being mind-blowing and becomes completely predictable and understandable.

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His First Tears At A White Funeral

I’m watching the second part of the NFL network’s documentary on Vince Lombardi, and black linebacker Dave Robinson says that the coach’s funeral was the first he shed a tear at a white funeral.

I don’t think most whites realize how tribal the rest of the world is.

When I was in Australia, every Australian who spoke to me about the turning away of boat people emphasized universal values. None of them spoke about national self-interest.

Jews ask, “Is it good for the Jews?” Every tribe asks that type of question but whites usually don’t. They phrase their morals in terms of the universal.

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An Introduction To The Alexander Technique

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The Examined Life: How We Love And Find Ourselves

I love this book.

From page 82: Anyone can become paranoid — that is, develop an irrational fantasy of being betrayed, mocked, exploited or harmed — but we are more likely to become paranoid if we are insecure, disconnected, alone. Above all, paranoid fantasies are a response to the feeling that we are being treated with indifference.

In other words, paranoid fantasies are disturbing, but they are a defense. They protect us from a more disastrous emotional state — namely, the feeling that no one is concerned about us, that no one cares.

From page 111: Many psychoanalysts think that lovesickness is a form of regression, that in longing for intense closeness, we are like infants craving our mother’s embrace. That is why we are most at risk when we are struggling with loss or despair, or when we are lonely or isolated — it is not uncommon to fall in love during the first term of university, for example.

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The Network

Chaim Amalek: “A modest fortune awaits the capitalist who founds a consciously white cable network. Of course she (a woman or a transgender would have a better shot) would not be able to call it that, but with the right dog whistle it could be done. Just think of the interesting programming that could follow! “Am I White? Let our panel of experts tell you.” This would be a huge hit among the hispanic set. “Test Your IQ” In this one, an Asian would test white peoples IQs or would compete against them on IQ tests for prizes. “Semite Secrets” Jews would explain how to get ahead in business. Etc. Etc.”

Wally Wharton: What a brilliant idea, Chaim— A white people’s network that not only celebrates “whiteness,” but also helps us middle-class Caucasians to co-exist in an ever-darkening, multi-culti world!! Then maybe us foolish palefaces who believe in personal reponsibility would FINALLY learn to appreciate gang cuture, illegal immigration, welfare baby mamas and international terrorism!!!

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Another Outburst From The Outrage Industry

I had a friend drop me as a Facebook friend because I used the expression “Chinaman.” There’s nothing wrong with the term “Chinaman.” It’s the same as Australian man or Jewish man or black man or Englishman.

There’s also nothing wrong with noting that different races have different physical characteristics.

Bob Beckel is getting called out here for pointing out an important point — that China is our biggest competitor and maybe even enemy.

State Senator Ted Lieu thinks he can profit from milking outrage. Asians used to be the model minority who didn’t get upset about things like this but in today’s tribal America, every tribe but whites is angling for advantage by posing as offended.

The Santa Monica Mirror writes:

State Senator Ted Lieu, who represents Santa Monica and much of the South Bay, today called on Fox News Host Bob Beckel to resign immediately after statements the Fox TV host made about Chinese people.

“We should all be alarmed by the racist, xenophobic comments by Fox News Host Bob Beckel,” Lieu said. “His comments have no place in America and this is at least the second time he has used racial slurs. He must resign immediately.”

Beckel said during a broadcast Thursday of “The Five” that “Chinese are the single biggest threat to the national security of the U.S. … Do you know what we just did? As usual, we bring them over here and teach a bunch of Chinamen – err, Chinese people – how to do computers and then they go back to China and hack into us.”

Last year, Mr. Beckel said that after he went swimming, his “eyes blew up, and it made me look Oriental.”

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