Tag Archives: chronic fatigue syndrome

My Former UCLA Classmate Is Now A Lieutenant Colonel In The U.S. Army

In the fall of 1988, I believed life could be normal again. I hoped to find a doctor who’d discover what was wrong with me and then I would return to the action full bore. I took three classes in … Continue reading

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I’ve Got To Make Some Fundamental Changes With The Ways I Try To Sleep

I just read The Harvard Medical School’s Guide to a Good Night Sleep. When I came down with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome in in February, 1988, I had to spend about 18 hours a day in bed (until the end of … Continue reading

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I Don’t Need Your Contempt

I find few things as distancing as receiving contempt. As a guy, I hate to acknowledge a lack of competence in my man tasks, but since February 1988, I’ve been hamstrung by Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and therefore been unable to … Continue reading

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Empathy & Shame

Throughout my life, I’ve had my narcissism interrupted by tides of empathy. I would suddenly see things as they really were for those around me and I would see how I was doing things that were unnecessarily hurting others and … Continue reading

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I’ll Never Forget Her Tears

* There was this girl in fifth grade (Avondale College Primary School) who liked me. I couldn’t stand it so I tortured her. I used to leave tacks on her chair. When she sat down, she’d scream and start crying. … Continue reading

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Converting The Mentally Ill

Orthodox Jews don’t look for converts among non-Jews. They typically turn away three times Gentiles seeking conversion and then only convert them after they have proved themselves. Now what happens if the convert is sincere but mentally ill? Different Batei … Continue reading

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She Looked Like Julia Roberts

April 24, 1970. Two days after her 40th birthday, my mother pressed my father’s hand and said, “Thank you for a lovely life.” Then she slipped into a coma and died from bone cancer. I was not yet four. May, … Continue reading

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I’m Having More CFS Relapses

Since I’ve started Alexander Technique teacher training, I’ve been having more Chronic Fatigue Syndrome relapses than normal. Why? Because I’m pushing myself more. I used to arrange my life so I could stay home 90% of the time and work … Continue reading

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I Get By With A Little Help From My Friends

When I quit writing on porn in October of 2007, I had $6,000 in the bank. Now I have $26,000 in credit card debt. I have $10,000 in other debts. And I owe my family about $9,000. Over the past … Continue reading

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My Fantasy Girl

Thursday night at Workmen’s Circle, I read this story: I met Jane at UCLA in the fall of 1988. I was an atheistic communist at the time, lost in the early stages of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. I spent most of … Continue reading

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