The Pure Soul Of The Penitent

* A man first needs to ask, “Where do I want to go?” before he asks, “Who do I want to take with me?” (David DeAngelo)

* Heard today: “Baalei teshuvos (newcomers to Orthodox Judaism) have pure souls but STDs.” All those years in college trying to find spirituality by sleeping with as many exotic women as possible.

* Got set up with a woman who I just found out thru Google was born in 1958.

* Over Rosh Hashanah, I got in touch with a whole bunch of resentments I need to work through, take responsibility for where necessary, and release everything else to God (the Fourth Step of Twelve Steps).

* I don’t believe in yom tov sheni (extra day of the Jewish holiday in the diaspora) but observe it anyway because I choose to live as an Orthodox Jew. I don’t get much out of davening but did many hours of it anyway over Rosh Hashanah (and had moments of spiritual highs). There are all sorts of things I’m doing I don’t like much… Tony Robbins says if your relationship is hard work it’s because you’re with the wrong person. I don’t think that applies to religion and many other worthy pursuits.

* Because of 12-step work, I’ve developed a sensitive antennae for my resentments and I work hard on writing them out, noticing what specifically I resent and how it threatened me (my well-being, my social prestige, my self-esteem, my finances, dating, etc), and seeing what part I played in the turmoil. Then I have to give up my resentment and fear to God or I’ll go back to using people to meet my addictive emotional needs. I also pick up clearly these days when others are filled with resentment and if they’re not interested in getting help, I do my best to stay away.

* I’m writing out things I never thought I’d overcome and did:
* Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (CFS)
* My conversion to Orthodox Judaism
* Becoming a teacher of the Alexander Technique
* Sex and love addiction, codependent relationships
How did I do it? I had clear goals and kept them even when for years I did not appear to be making any progress (such as my conversion which took more than a decade). I developed my relationships, shared my goals, enlisted others in my projects, and gratefully accepted their help. In the conversion case, however, I asked for no help.
I kept trying things for my health. I had eight years of psycho-therapy. My will is corrupt. My self-talk is often delusional. My sense of reality is warped. My common sense is often minimal. So I need an objective third-party to report to once a week on my progress towards my goals.
Therapy guided me to 12-step programs.

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‘Sam Bacile’ Identified

“Sam Bacile” turns out to be a Coptic Christian, not a Jew nor an Israeli. He’s also a convicted felon. The AP reports: LOS ANGELES (AP) — The search for those behind the provocative, anti-Muslim film implicated in violent protests in Egypt and Libya led Wednesday to a California Coptic Christian convicted of financial crimes who acknowledged his role in managing and providing logistics for the production.
Nakoula Basseley Nakoula, 55, told The Associated Press in an interview outside Los Angeles that he was manager for the company that produced “Innocence of Muslims,” which mocked Muslims and the prophet Muhammad and may have caused inflamed mobs that attacked U.S. missions in Egypt and Libya. He provided the first details about a shadowy production group behind the film.
Nakoula denied he directed the film and said he knew the self-described filmmaker, Sam Bacile. But the cell phone number that AP contacted Tuesday to reach the filmmaker who identified himself as Sam Bacile traced to the same address near Los Angeles where AP found Nakoula. Federal court papers said Nakoula’s aliases included Nicola Bacily, Erwin Salameh and others.
Nakoula told the AP that he was a Coptic Christian and said the film’s director supported the concerns of Christian Copts about their treatment by Muslims.
Nakoula denied he had posed as Bacile. During a conversation outside his home, he offered his driver’s license to show his identity but kept his thumb over his middle name, Basseley. Records checks by the AP subsequently found it and other connections to the Bacile persona.
The AP located Bacile after obtaining his cell phone number from Morris Sadek, a conservative Coptic Christian in the U.S. who had promoted the anti-Muslim film in recent days on his website. Egypt’s Christian Coptic population has long decried what they describe as a history of discrimination and occasional violence from the country’s Arab majority.
Pastor Terry Jones of Gainesville, Florida, who burned Qurans on the ninth anniversary of the Sept. 11, 2001 terror attacks, said he spoke with the movie’s director on the phone Wednesday and prayed for him. He said he has not met the filmmaker in person, but the man contacted him a few weeks ago about promoting the movie.

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Yisroel Pensack: New York City Board of Health Vote Scheduled Today on Requiring Informed Consent for Direct Oral-Genital Suction During Infant Circumcision

The New York Times reports:

…part of the circumcision ritual, known in Hebrew as metzitzah b’peh [direct oral-genital suction], … is still commonplace in parts of the ultra-Orthodox Jewish community but is rare in other branches of Judaism.

The city estimates that metzitzah b’peh is used in some 3,600 local circumcisions each year. The city’s health department says that, between 2000 and 2011, 11 babies contracted herpes as a result, and 2 of them died. This spring, the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention declared that the procedure created a risk for transmission of herpes and other pathogens and was “not safe.”

…on Thursday, the city’s Board of Health is scheduled to vote on a proposal that would require parents to sign a consent form indicating that they are aware of the risk of herpes transmission when a circumcision procedure, or bris, includes direct oral contact.

The measure, which Mayor Michael R. Bloomberg strongly supports, would probably be the first governmental regulation of the ritual in the United States, rabbis say. It would not affect the way most Jewish ritual circumcisions are performed — gauze or a sterile pipette is used to pull blood from the wound — nor would it ban the practice. But the issue being raised in New York coincides with moves in Denmark, Germany and other countries toward restricting or banning infant circumcision.

…city health officials say…safeguards [such as the Jewish ritual circumciser] rinsing with Listerine before the procedure, sterilizing tools, scrubbing hands with surgical soap and being tested annually for pathogens, are insufficient.

The main virus that worries the city is oral herpes, which is present in some 70 percent of the city’s adult population and can cause fatal infections in babies. Highly contagious, it is spread through contact with infected saliva, even by sharing drinks or towels.

“There is no safe way to perform oral suction on an open wound in a newborn,” said Dr. Jay K. Varma, the city’s deputy commissioner for disease control. If the measure passes, he said, circumcisers who do not comply could face warning letters or fines.

Ultra-Orthodox leaders plan to sue the city if the regulation is passed, arguing that the measure would constitute an unconstitutional infringement on their religious freedom. Some 200 ultra-Orthodox rabbis published a decree in late August warning adherents that it was forbidden “to participate in the evil plans of the New York City health department,” according to a translation by Yeshiva World News. And a Jewish religious court in Crown Heights, Brooklyn, went further, stating that oral suction was a mandatory part of the procedure that should be promoted.

“There is nothing to worry from metzitzah b’peh,” the judges wrote, according to a translation by the Chabad Lubavitch movement. “To the contrary, it is very beneficial, even according to the doctors.”

But other Jewish leaders disagree.

Rabbi Gerald C. Skolnik, the president of the Rabbinical Assembly, the international association of conservative rabbis, said he supported the Board of Health’s move to require parental consent. He said that direct suction was not required by Jewish law and that the serious risks of the practice were “inconsistent with the Jewish tradition’s pre-eminent concern with human life and health.”

In 2005, the Rabbinical Council of America, the main union of modern Orthodox rabbis, urged that a sterile glass tube be used for suction, rather than the mohel’s mouth. But the group opposes the city’s effort to regulate the practice; instead it has asked the city to work with Orthodox groups “to voluntarily develop procedures to effectively prevent the unintended spread of infection.”

According to a city Health Department notice from June (linked in the current Times article above) which had announced a scheduled July 23 public hearing on this issue, “The purpose of the proposed amendment [to the city Health Code] is to require informed consent from a parent or legal guardian when direct oral suction will be performed during his or her son’s circumcision. A written informed consent will be required, which would provide information about the risks involved, including possible infection with herpes simplex virus and its potentially serious consequences, such as brain damage and death. Knowing the risks posed by direct oral suction, a parent or legal guardian can then make an informed choice about whether it should be performed as part of the circumcision.

“The proposed amendment will require practitioners of oral suction during circumcision to retain copies of informed consent forms for at least one year and to make them available to the Department upon request,” the city’s June announcement said.

The legal language proposed at the time said, “A person may not perform a circumcision that involves direct oral suction on a child under one year of age without obtaining, prior to circumcision, the written informed consent of a parent or legal guardian of the child who is being circumcised in a form approved or provided by the Department.”

UPDATE:  The Times reports:

The New York City Board of Health passed a regulation on Thursday that will require consent from parents before an infant can have a form of Jewish ritual circumcision, prevalent in parts of the ultra-Orthodox community, in which the circumciser uses his mouth to remove blood from the incision.

In a morning meeting, the nine-member panel of doctors and public health professionals said that though the regulation had been challenged by some Orthodox Jewish religious authorities as an unconstitutional infringement of their religious freedom, the risk of disease from the ancient procedure was serious enough to warrant action.

…the city will now require ritual circumcisers to inform parents in writing if they will use direct oral contact during the circumcision, and must receive their written consent. The consent form states that the health department advises against the procedure because of the possibility of herpes transmission, which may cause brain damage or death. The mohelim must keep that permission document for one year.

Failure to comply may result in warning letters or fines to the mohelim. Enforcement, though, will be based on investigation of specific complaints and herpes cases, not spot checks or raids, and there are no mandatory punishments, said Dr. Jay K. Varma, the city’s deputy commissioner for disease control.

Orthodox groups, including Agudath Israel of America and the Central Rabbinical Congress, have announced that they plan to sue the city to block the regulation, which is scheduled to go into effect 30 days from official publication of the rule.

“We are convinced that this amendment will be thrown out by the courts,” said Rabbi David Niederman, a Satmar Hasidic leader.

The city believes about 3,600 male infants are circumcised with direct oral suction each year and estimates their risk of contracting herpes at roughly 1 in 4,000. The Centers for Disease Control and Prevention has called the procedure unsafe and recommended against it.

But among doctors that work with ultra-Orthodox families, there is some doubt whether regulation is the right course.

“They feel that if their child doesn’t have the metzitzah b’peh, he is not Jewish, so this, to them, is the most important act that they can do for their son in life,” said Dr. Kenneth I. Glassberg, the director of the division of pediatric urology at Morgan Stanley Children’s Hospital at NewYork-Presbyterian.

“Medically, I don’t approve of it,” he added of the oral contact, “but if you’re asking me, ‘Does it cause harm?’, I haven’t seen enough proof that it causes harm.”

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Did A Movie Kill People?

The MSM attributes the murders of four Americans to a movie that mocks Islam.

The Atlantic writes: “And yet, here the movie is, not just offending apparently significant numbers of people, but producing real-world damage.”

The movie didn’t kill anyone or damage anything. Movies mocking Christians do not result in Christians rioting or murdering anyone. The Libyan murderers are solely responsible for these murders, not the movie.

When Muslims choose to riot and to murder in response to an artistic representation they do not like, those Muslims bear the entire moral responsibility for their deeds.

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Who Is ‘Sam Bacile’?

A man known as “Sam Bacile” directed the feature film “The Innocence of Muslims”, which is stirring up anger in the Islamic world against Americans, leading to riots against the US Embassy in Egypt and the killings of four Americans at the US embassy in Libya.

My phone is burning up this morning with inquiries from network news, national magazines and other news media inquiring about “Sam Bacile.”

I don’t recall hearing of anybody by that name prior to yesterday.

This morning I spoke to a national news magazine, a network news producer, and the former Editor of a LA daily newspaper. Nobody knows anything about Sam Bacile.

NPR says: Most Americans knew nothing about “Innocence of Muslims.” That’s the film that has set the Muslim world on fire, causing protests in Egypt and Libya that led to the death of the U.S. envoy to Libya, Christopher Stevens.

The bottom line is that we know very little about Sam Bacile, the man who produced the film. But The Wall Street Journal caught up with Bacile before he went into hiding.

According to the Journal, Bacile raised “$5 million from 100 Jewish donors” and he produced the film using 60 actors and 45 crew members.

Bacile told the Journal that he made the film to expose “Islam as a hateful religion.”

“Islam is a cancer,” he told the paper. “The movie is a political movie. It’s not a religious movie.”

In another interview, Bacile told the Associated Press that he was a real estate developer and an Israeli Jew, but Israeli authorities told the wire service they have no records of him being a citizen.

Our library did not turn up any footprint for Bacile. They turned no property, phone, licenses nor court records. And Bacile had not made news until today.

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Nicole Strafaci’s Gorgeous Stories

I met a fascinating artist, designer, model, writer and performer tonight at Terrie Silverman’s Gorgeous Stories show at Beyond Baroque in Venice.

I’m performing tomorrow night at the same place.

Nicole Strafaci operates CollagePhilosophy.com: “I have always been greatly influenced by books. Literature, biographies, and some contemporary fiction have provided endless hours of enjoyment and education. Some of my favorites: Hermann Hesse, Truman Capote, John Updike, Henry Miller, Anais Nin and Collette. Visual art, lacking in verbal expression is complete for me when I read, as I enjoy connecting visual and verbal ideas. Discovering my love of collage in college and in my mother’s vintage business, I also found a magical story By Anais Nin. Nin, also loved collage in both its physical and psychological dimension. Her diaries and autobiographical fiction combined and recombined thoughts and poetry in a continuous, complex cycle. Known to the masses as a writer of poetic erotica, she was more importantly an independent thinker, a philosopher, and an artist. “Collage Philosophy,” is a tribute to her for uniting my visual and literary worlds. In Nin’s “Ragtime,” a man walks the streets collecting a wild assortment of broken objects.”

Last night I met a nude model who designed clothes. Talk about the complete package! So many times in my life I’ve met women who excelled at taking clothes off while other women I knew excelled at putting them on. Now I’ve met one who does it all. Any assistance I can render her will bring me a share of her mitzvos of clothing the naked! Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life and I’ll dwell in the House of the Lord forever.

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Obama’s English

From the New York Times: “But while racial and ethnic minorities (and working-class whites) must continue to learn “standard” American English — the country’s dominant language — all children surely need to learn to understand and appreciate the nuances of America’s diverse ways of speaking.”

Dennis Prager on his radio show today: “I have no idea what that means. Here’s how blacks diversely speak? How latinos diversely speak?”

NYT: “In a multiethnic, multicultural America where Hispanics are the largest ethnic minority and Asians are the fastest-growing minority, national politicians also will have to be fluent in multiple ways of speaking.”

Dennis: “Makes me throw up. I don’t want them to be fluent in multiple ways of speaking. When I hear politicians sound different before different audiences, it makes me sick. I’ve spoken to every ethnic group in America and I’ve spoke exactly the same. It is a matter of pride to me to not condescend to my audience.”

NYT:”For too long, sounding presidential meant sounding like a white, middle- or upper-class straight man (with modest leeway for regional accents). In 2012 and beyond, it’s going to take a lot more than that to win over the hearts and minds — and ears — of the American people.”

Dennis: “I’m also supposed to sound gay? The vast majority of gays sound like straights. All lesbians do and most gay men. This is the crap at Stanford.”

NYT: “H. Samy Alim, the director of the Center for Race, Ethnicity and Language at Stanford University, and Geneva Smitherman, a professor of English at Michigan State University, are the authors of “Articulate While Black: Barack Obama, Language, and Race in the U.S.””

Dennis says he’s working on his autobiography and it is tentatively titled, “A Man, A Jew And An American.”

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Edon Pinchot Interview After “America’s Got Talent”; Why do Cops Think the Beating of a Jewish Student in Michigan Wasn’t Anti-Semitic?

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Death Row Inmate Michael Flinner

From NCTimes.com, Oct. 23, 2003:

EL CAJON – A landscaper who took out a $500,000 insurance policy on his fiancee and an ex-employee he hired to kill her were convicted today of murder and special circumstances that could lead to the death penalty.

Michael Flinner, 36, and Haron Ontiveros, 30, were found guilty after deliberations that began Oct. 9.

Separate juries heard the cases against the two men.

Flinner, the fiance of 18-year-old Tamra Keck, and Ontiveros – also known as Juan Delatorre – were convicted of murder and special circumstance allegations of murder for financial gain and lying in wait.

On August 1, 2012, Michael Flinner (Deathrowinmate.org) writes me:

Shalom,

…I’m a 45-year-old Jewish former landscape contractor from San Diego, writing to you from the haunting empty confines of Death Row at San Quentin State Prison…

Just weeks prior to my Bar Mitzvah while in our “esteemed” commmunity rabbi’s study, I found myself at the tender age of 12 1/2, standing before the only authority figure I had ever known (or recognized) outside of the comforts of home, naked from the waist down, huge hungry hands grasping each side of my ass, and a tallit wrapped completely around the rabbi’s head and shoulder as he orally copulated me, chanting some sort of Hebrew prayer and professing that God uses him and other rabbis as vessels to secure a place in Heaven (by planting a seed) so that when we died, I and all others who have carved their paths unto adulthood through Torah, may live on… Once is all it took to literally spin my life into the downward spiral that has resulted in poor decision making and a complete disregard for any authority.

Thirty years is a very long time to wait for anything, much less to harbor that degree of pain from having my youth stolen from me — somehow being so stupid as to become someone’s victim.

The event manifested itself over the years into what I define as an insatiable appetite for sex, an unruly addiction to cocaine, and a true nonchalant attitude toward life… I actually caught a case in the last part of 1990 with my (now deceased) son’s mother and took my first trip to state prison for almost nine years. She (Pamela) was bi-curious which for obvious reasons from the mindset of an addict, was a welcome alternative to the monogamy game we’d been playing. Many women found their way in and out of our bed but it wasn’t too long thereafter, until that too just wasn’t good enough. Drug use prior to and during these encounters would end up nearly tearing our entire family unit apart. Secrets were divulged and one just wouldn’t stop haunting me — Pam had been date-raped by a former ex-lover. Despite that it occurred prior to our union, I saw the ruin in her eyes and I couldn’t let it go. Emotions acting without the benefit of intellect, I set out to avenge her pain. After I got that out of my system by nearly killing her rapist, she and I would later be accused of a sex crime ourselves. There were drugs and poor judgment, but no crimes ever took place (that I recall) behind our bedroom doors, unless quasi-savage sexual indulgence constitutes acts that are later deemed to be less than consensual… I accepted a plea agreement for several of the trumped up charges in exchange for Pamela and my infant son (now nearly 23) being given immunity from prosecution.

…Even prior to going to prison in 1991, I was a trusted and loyal comrade of the late Irv Rubin of the JDL. With an on-call role when he would travel south of San Juan Capistrano, I became his handler. Both he and Earl Krugel were friends of mine long prior to their murders (and yes, they were murdered) in custody — Irv while awaiting trial and Earl just a few days into his 20 year sentence in the Feds.

I met Irv by accident. I came upon him and his then toddler son (Ari) in a grocery store parking lot in Encino. I happened upon them by God’s will which enabled me to prevent them from an armed assailant who held a large knife in hopes of cashing in for Thanksgiving (it was a rainy November in 1988). We became fast friends and looking back today in spite of my passion for Judaism, I wish I would’ve just shook his hand and walked away. Instead, I allowed him to shower me in approval, showing me off to his colleagues, and telling everyone how I had simply walked up on his deathbed and stuffed a handgun in his would-be assailant’s mouth. This all occurred long before the first trip to prison, but at that point, I was already buried in the criminal element.

I’m too loyal to the people I love. That’s how I finally came to rest in this dungeon, letting my emotions act without benefit of intellect.

While living a peace-filled life (post-prison) and having moved on and into bigger and better things, my amazing live-in girlfriend Tamra got herself killed by one of my employees. Upon arrest, he told the cops that I had hired him to kill her. I did not kill anyone…

Shortly after I began putting my memories on paper, I learned that my abuser (Rabbi Frankel) had died. When I was his pupil, the shul (Temple Beth Shalom) was in Chula Vista, California.

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