Category Archives: Personal

Gaining Comfort With Myself, With Others And With God

I’ve long had a hard time looking people (aside from friends and the few I felt comfortable with) in the face. I guess it reflects a fundamental lack of ease I have had with myself, with God and with others. … Continue reading

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Confronting Yourself

I think about myself about 90% of the time. Is this percentage normal for a single person? The happier I am, the less I think about myself, and the unhappier I am, the more I think about myself. I suspect … Continue reading

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My Neediness Is As Big As The Grand Canyon

Just before my 40th birthday, my ex-girlfriend Holly, who was throwing me a party, said to me on the phone about her shopping for my gift, “What do you get the guy who has nothing?” She had looked into the … Continue reading

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The World Frightens Me

I was in shul watching a siddur (prayer book) about to fall off a shelf and I felt physically sick, my stomach wrenched, as I waited for its fall (it didn’t, someone grabbed it). When I watch the same thing … Continue reading

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Converting To Judaism

From a series of my FB posts: The ethnic tribal national peoplehood component of Judaism took me the longest time to get (as compared to the Torah and God components, which seemed self-evident). I remember walking into temple for the … Continue reading

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Random Thoughts

* One of the first Jewish traits I took on (inspired by Dennis Prager) circa 1991 was to finish my conversations with, “Be well.” * New Yorker: “Be prepared, Easterners: L.A. traffic is calm except in the Hollywood and Beverly … Continue reading

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Booted From Starbucks

I was at Starbucks on Pico and Robertson Blvds this morning around 11 a.m., when this old drunk black man came in and started bothering customers. So the female manager came out and asked him to leave. The man got … Continue reading

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My Fear Of Abandonment

As I drive up the 405 towards Mulholland Drive on Super Bowl Sunday Feb. 3, 2013 to the first performance of my one-man play, there is a loud knocking from my engine. I notice that as I reduced the pressure … Continue reading

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Why Hank Sent Me A Penny

Hank emails: Luke: Was to wake you up! You’re a mensch still stuck in your head who thinks too much. You best friends are words, blogs and intellectualism. Learn how to feel. For to feel is the only way to … Continue reading

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My Fear Of Abandonment Comes From My Unwillingness To Grow Up

My fear of abandonment keeps raising its ugly head because I’d rather put my reliance on a relationship, a group, a job, a status, on anything rather than to do the work to become self reliant and self-validating. For example, … Continue reading

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