Category Archives: Personal

Stories I Tell Myself

We all use paradigms and stories to organize information and to give it meaning. I’ve been Facebooking with a bloke about the similar stories we tell ourselves about being unwanted. We both had certain rejections in our childhood from other … Continue reading

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What Do I Want From My Audience?

When I was rehearsing my one-man play in April, I met with my teacher to get her feedback. Teacher: Think about who you are talking to. Is the audience my friend? My therapist? Why am I saying this? What do … Continue reading

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Walking Down Pico Blvd

Walking down Pico Blvd, this middle-aged white guy with a baseball cap on a bike stops me. “Rabbi, I have a question,” he says. “You’re a real rabbi, right, not a Jew for Jesus?” I tell him I’m not a … Continue reading

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I’ve Had To Go Against My Friends Every Time I’ve Wanted To Make A Major Change

My first few days on modafinil (it’s life-changing medication for people who get sleepy during the day), I was so excited, I didn’t sleep well, but I think that difficulty was more related to my excitement that I had found … Continue reading

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I Want To Dance Disco

* I never learned to dance because I grew up a Seventh-Day Adventist and such a thing is a sin. Before I die, I would really like to learn to dance to disco. * I don’t like it when women … Continue reading

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Modafinil – The Wonder Drug

I couldn’t sleep Monday night until well after 2 a.m. Tuesday and I woke up feeling wrecked. I took my first modafinil, 100 mg, and felt amazing all day, and super-productive. Sleep is the hot new field. Most people in … Continue reading

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Lazing Away My Sunday

I took Friday off and spent the morning listening to Family Tree Counseling videos and writing in my journal. Then I spent the afternoon finishing this book on 1948 Australia vs England cricket. And now it is Sunday and I … Continue reading

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Feelings Of Betrayal Are Irrational And Unnecessary Drama

If you feel betrayed, it is only because you want to give an irrational and emotional reaction to somebody having different priorities from what you imagined. Your spouse didn’t betray you by having an affair, she simply had different priorities. … Continue reading

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Gaining Comfort With Myself, With Others And With God

I’ve long had a hard time looking people (aside from friends and the few I felt comfortable with) in the face. I guess it reflects a fundamental lack of ease I have had with myself, with God and with others. … Continue reading

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Confronting Yourself

I think about myself about 90% of the time. Is this percentage normal for a single person? The happier I am, the less I think about myself, and the unhappier I am, the more I think about myself. I suspect … Continue reading

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