Category Archives: Personal

What Was The Last Day Of My Youth?

I just watched this movie for the third time. I love it. It’s about growing up an Adventist in Australia. It made me think, what was the last day of my youth? Here’s my answer — the morning I woke … Continue reading

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My First Dates

When I read the stories I wrote in the 1980s, the ones I didn’t burn during my religious phase, and I listen to my favorite music at the same time, I’m able to drum up compassion for the man I … Continue reading

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The Man With The Eagle Tattoo

During my years in the construction business (1986-1988), I mixed with high-school dropouts, Vietnam veterans, alcoholics, drug addicts and men with big tattoos. Jesse had all these qualities. That man with the screaming eagle tattoo played a prominent part in … Continue reading

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Tiny Dancer

I wrote this in 1986, inspired by a girl I met at work — Becky Hanzlick: You must have seen her Dancing in the sand Elton John Through the fog of another sleepless night, I see her beside me dancing … Continue reading

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As A Younger Man, I Had More Choices

I wrote this in late 1988, reflecting upon the women I’d met while at Sierra Community College: “Here you must choose,” said the guide. The boy and girl nodded and looked ahead. Their comfortable trail had fragmented into hundreds of … Continue reading

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Growing Up As Des Ford’s Son

I don’t remember my first year of life. From all accounts, my parents loved each other and my home was a happy place. I know I’ve drawn tremendous strength from that first year, completely lost to my memories. Over the … Continue reading

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I’m Rewriting My Rules

I’m rewriting my rules for when I feel happy, successful, and loved (based on a Tony Robbins lecture) and they all start with, “Any time….” As in, any time I do a mitzvah, I feel happy and successful in my … Continue reading

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What Am I Certain About?

There are benefits to certainty (along with many downsides). Usually, in a clash of equally matched forces, the most certain group prevails (ergo Islam is the world’s most powerful religion today). When evenly matched people clash, the most certain one … Continue reading

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Why Do I Write?

Sitting in Starbucks Monday, I sipped Passion Iced Tea and listened to a Tony Robbins lecture on communication. He began by asking why do we communicate? I stopped his lecture and thought about why do I write? I was stumped. … Continue reading

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My Greatest Need

10 a.m. It’s 80 degrees Fahrenheit, heading for a high of 96. I’m off to Starbucks. I want to sit in air conditioning and sip iced tea and write in my journal. I walk up Pico Blvd listening to a … Continue reading

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