Category Archives: Personal

Prisoners Of War

I’m watching this Israeli TV show “Prisoners of War” and this gorgeous girl, working undercover, throws herself at this guy to try to suck information out of him. And I’m thinking, I’d give anything to be this guy. This is … Continue reading

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Turning Points

* When I was a child, I had these bouts of conscience where I confessed my sins to my step-mom. This began my life-long habit of confessing, which has repaired many a relationship. For the last 16 years, I’ve done … Continue reading

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What Was The Last Day Of My Youth?

I just watched this movie for the third time. I love it. It’s about growing up an Adventist in Australia. It made me think, what was the last day of my youth? Here’s my answer — the morning I woke … Continue reading

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My First Dates

When I read the stories I wrote in the 1980s, the ones I didn’t burn during my religious phase, and I listen to my favorite music at the same time, I’m able to drum up compassion for the man I … Continue reading

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The Man With The Eagle Tattoo

During my years in the construction business (1986-1988), I mixed with high-school dropouts, Vietnam veterans, alcoholics, drug addicts and men with big tattoos. Jesse had all these qualities. That man with the screaming eagle tattoo played a prominent part in … Continue reading

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Tiny Dancer

I wrote this in 1986, inspired by a girl I met at work — Becky Hanzlick: You must have seen her Dancing in the sand Elton John Through the fog of another sleepless night, I see her beside me dancing … Continue reading

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As A Younger Man, I Had More Choices

I wrote this in late 1988, reflecting upon the women I’d met while at Sierra Community College: “Here you must choose,” said the guide. The boy and girl nodded and looked ahead. Their comfortable trail had fragmented into hundreds of … Continue reading

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Growing Up As Des Ford’s Son

I don’t remember my first year of life. From all accounts, my parents loved each other and my home was a happy place. I know I’ve drawn tremendous strength from that first year, completely lost to my memories. Over the … Continue reading

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I’m Rewriting My Rules

I’m rewriting my rules for when I feel happy, successful, and loved (based on a Tony Robbins lecture) and they all start with, “Any time….” As in, any time I do a mitzvah, I feel happy and successful in my … Continue reading

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What Am I Certain About?

There are benefits to certainty (along with many downsides). Usually, in a clash of equally matched forces, the most certain group prevails (ergo Islam is the world’s most powerful religion today). When evenly matched people clash, the most certain one … Continue reading

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