Category Archives: Personal

Gaining Comfort With Myself, With Others And With God

Posted on June 5, 2013 by Luke Ford

I’ve long had a hard time looking people (aside from friends and the few I felt comfortable with) in the face. I guess it reflects a fundamental lack of ease I have had with myself, with God and with others. … Continue reading →

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Confronting Yourself

Posted on June 2, 2013 by Luke Ford

I think about myself about 90% of the time. Is this percentage normal for a single person? The happier I am, the less I think about myself, and the unhappier I am, the more I think about myself. I suspect … Continue reading →

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My Neediness Is As Big As The Grand Canyon

Posted on June 2, 2013 by Luke Ford

Just before my 40th birthday, my ex-girlfriend Holly, who was throwing me a party, said to me on the phone about her shopping for my gift, “What do you get the guy who has nothing?” She had looked into the … Continue reading →

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The World Frightens Me

Posted on May 20, 2013 by Luke Ford

I was in shul watching a siddur (prayer book) about to fall off a shelf and I felt physically sick, my stomach wrenched, as I waited for its fall (it didn’t, someone grabbed it). When I watch the same thing … Continue reading →

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Converting To Judaism

Posted on May 12, 2013 by Luke Ford

From a series of my FB posts: The ethnic tribal national peoplehood component of Judaism took me the longest time to get (as compared to the Torah and God components, which seemed self-evident). I remember walking into temple for the … Continue reading →

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