Yisroel Pensack: The New York Times Shows Uncanny Timing With Sunday Travel Story On Mountain Climbing In The Himalayas

"It was 4 a.m. in mid-November, and I was stretching in a lodge in Thorong Phedi, Nepal, at 14,500 feet, trying to pump warmth back into my body and get rid of a throbbing headache brought on by dehydration and altitude sickness. Wolfing down chapati bread with jam and a fried egg, I chased it with pints of hot tea and water, and started to feel better. I knew I was going to need all my strength.

"Fifteen of us, along with porters and guides, were about to climb Thorong La, a pass 17,769 feet up in the Himalayas."

So begins a "Personal Journeys" travel article in today’s New York Times titled "In Nepal, a Long, Cold Climb to Inspiration."

A news article in the Times this weekend, however, might give readers some serious reservations before rushing to book flights to Nepal or Tibet to go mountain climbing in the Himalayas. 

That article says, in part:

The husband of [Democratic U.S.] Representative Carolyn B. Maloney of New York died after scaling a mountain peak during an expedition in Tibet, Ms. Maloney’s office announced on Saturday.

Her husband, Clifton H. W. Maloney, 71, had returned safely to a high-altitude base camp after reaching the summit of the 27,000-foot Himalayan peak Cho Oyu…Mr. Maloney said he was “the happiest man in the world,” went to sleep and never woke up, the statement said.

The statement described Mr. Maloney as an avid climber, sailor and runner who had finished the New York City Marathon 20 times. He was a vice president at Goldman Sachs before starting his own investment firm, C. H. W. Maloney & Company, in 1981…

ifton Harlan Wells Maloney, 71, a millionaire investment banker, was an avid mountaineer who finished the New York City Marathon 20 times.

He reached the 27,000-foot summit of Cho Oyu, the sixth highest peak in the world, on Thursday, then came down to a base camp at 23,000 feet where he died in his sleep, Arzt said.

His last words before going to sleep were, "I’m the happiest man in the world. I’ve just summited a beautiful mountain."

Cho Oyu, which means "Turquoise Goddess" in Tibetan, is on the border of China and Tibet. Maloney was in China at the time of his death, Arzt said.

Read more: http://www.nydailynews.com/news/2009/09/26/2009-09-26_new_york_rep_carolyn_maloneys_husband_dies_on_mountain_climbing_expedition_in_ti.html#ixzz0SJAJaJM1

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She Purrs

She called Friday at 8:08 pm. He couldn’t pick up the phone because it was the Sabbath, but it was their pre-arranged signal for him to come out to get her.

He wouldn’t get to listen to her message until motzi Shabbos: "Hi, did you order an escort? I’m outside. I can’t get in. Will you come out and get me? I need to get paid. I want to do my job."

He walked through the darkness to her car.

She was fresh from dinner at the boss’s house.

She sat in her car and applied gloss to her lips.

He stood by his gate and waited. She kept applying gloss and checking herself out in the mirror.

He could wait no more and crossed the street to her.

She took her time getting out of the car and then she was in his arms.

It was dark out. He didn’t see anybody but her.

The hug went on and on and then they released and he led her inside the gate.

Once in the hovel, they embraced.

"What type of gloss did you put on your lips?" he asked.

"Why don’t you find out?" she said.

He kissed her and it was sweet and he let his lips linger on hers.

How many times had he hugged her in a perfunctory manner? How often had he ignored her completely and rushed on to other things, to the food she’d brought?

He would not make those mistakes again.

He was going to let it linger.

"Let’s lie down," he said. He threw off his clothes and reached for her.

She kicked off her shoes and put down her purse.

She sat down on his chair and unbuttoned her pants and waved her legs in the air and said, "I need your help."

He slid her jeans off and then her top. Then he led to his bed.

"Gut shabbos!" he said.

Their conversation went past midnight.

"That was the best talk we’ve ever had," she said.

She was exhausted but enjoyed his nattering on about his first experiences in Orthodox shuls, his first deceptions, his failures and fears, and eventual triumph.

She began to purr. And then she sighed. She groaned and tossed and turned.

He took himself to the foot of the bed and put down his yoga mat and covered it with a towel and tried to sleep alone.

His feet ached. They felt swollen and hot. They would not lie comfortably on top of each other.

He felt itchy and feared the hives were coming back.

He was exhausted and yet could not sleep.

He could never sleep these days until after 2.am.

Near 3 a.m., he came back to her bed. She embraced him, fitting her body to his.

"We could put a towel down," he said.

"But I’m impure!" she protested. "I don’t want to make you impure."

"I don’t care," he said.

She laughed. She’d triumphed over his Orthodox Judaism yet again.

"What did you do last Yom Kippur?" he asked.

"I went to a movie and then to dinner," she said.

"Do you want to walk with me around the hood?" he asked.

"I don’t know. That wouldn’t be easy for me. It would bring up all sorts of things."

"Yom Kippur," he sighed. "I love to walk around the hood. It’s one of those rare times when I feel like the spiritual dimension is more real than the physical one."

"I feel that way most of the time," she said.

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‘Mazal Tov!’

"Mazal tov!" said my friend as he sat beside me at Shalosh Sheudos.

Towards the end of the Yedid Nefesh, he put his arm around me and we swayed to the music.

"Have you read the words?" he said. "The translation? It’s beautiful, particularly the end. It means something different when it is sung Friday night and when it is sung now."

Yom Kippur begins Sunday evening.

Please be revealed and spread upon me, my Beloved, the shelter of Your peace that we may rejoice and be glad with You. Hasten, be loved, for the time has come, and show us grace as in days of old.

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Yisroel Pensack: Northern California Mohel Who Cannot Speak Issues Yom Kippur Message

Rabbi Chanan Feld, longtime San Francisco Bay Area mohel and a Torah teacher based at Beit Midrash Ohr HaChaim in Berkeley,     has been seriously ill with oral cancer. According to an email I just received from the Beit Midrash, "Though he cannot speak he can write, and he wanted this to go out…for people to read and think about as they prepare for Yom Kippur."

(This teaching is adapted from the sefer "Ohr Gedalyahu.")

     Kapparah, Tahara — Atonement, Purification

"Ki biyom hazeh yichaper alaychem litaher etchem mikol chatateichem lifnei HaShem titharu." (VaYikra 16:30)

"For on this day he shall provide atonement for you to purify you from all your sins before HaShem you shall be purified." (Leviticus 16:30)

When one sins they require atonement and purification. Even if one has received atonement, they still need what is called purification. For at the moment one sins, besides the punishment for transgressing the will of HaShem, the unfortunate person also blemishes their nefesh and neshama, and desentisizes their heart. It is as if they, so to speak, "stuff up" their heart.

This is why the sages say, "aveirah goreret aveirah," or "one sin causes or leads to another." The first offense one does "mitame"s [spiritually defiles] and "chatum"s [spiritually seals off] the heart. That is, it desensitizes it and then seals it off. This desensitizing leads to a second time, etc. The end result is that one becomes distanced from HaShem.

In a person’s tshuva, therefore, one requires Kapparah (atonement) to avoid the punishment, and then Taharah (purificiation), to fill in (fix) the blemish done to the soul; to remove the desensitization and the sealing off that has happened in the heart.

Like the statement in Scripture that says, "oomaltem et arlat livavchem," (and they will circumcise the foreskin of their heart), one must peel away the foreskin on the heart, the cover and seal which were a result of the transgression. This is the Tahara or Purification. This is a kind of self-cleansing of the sin’s shmutz, in combination with Kapparah or Atonement on the punishment.

After both steps or stages have been accomplished, then once again, we can draw closer to HaShem. That is why the original pasuk concludes: "lifnei HaShem titharu" or "before HaShem you shall be purified" — so that you can draw close to HaShem.

In the Talmud (Yuma 85) Rebbi said, "all the sins in the Torah, whether you’ve done tshuva on them or not, the day of Yom Kippur itself brings atonement, Kapparah." Like the Sefer HaChinuch (Mitzvah 185) which says, "The day receives Kedusha (holiness) from HaKadosh Baruch Hu (the Holy One, Blessed be He) to the point that it aids in Kapparah (atonement)."

Yes, the day aids in Kapparah or atonement, but it doesn’t have the power to bring Taharah or Purification. That strength lies in the hands of each and every one of us. Yom Kippur can take you part of the way, but only one’s tshuva, on that day, in addition to what the day itself brings, can help us reach the purification level beyond the atonement. That’s the special mitzvah of the day of Yom Kippur.

Rabbi Akiva in the mishnah of Yuma 85 says, "Fortunate are Israel. Before Whom do you become purified, and Who is the One who purifies? Your Father in Heaven." Just as a mikvah brings purification and renewal or newness, so "HaShem brings purification, Taharah."

We must remember, we do the tshuva and the effort or action for Tahara, but it is HaShem that purifies. It is a partnering or unification.

May we all merit higher and higher levels of Tahara and drawing ever closer to our Father in Heaven!

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‘They Were In Danger Of Becoming Inseparable’

That’s a great line from one of John Updike’s final stories.

I know what it is like to feel close to someone, to not want to live without them, and simultaneously feeling an urge to destroy it all so one can be free. Independent. Non-needy.

David Deida says in his book: "There is only one way for a man to give a woman what she truly wants, and that is through his strength of loving when he is not compromised by fear. A man who lives in fear — of losing his woman, of failing in his career — is weakened in his expression of love. His core is compromised. He is unable to ravish his woman because he is unable to let go of the clench in his gut." (Pg. 261)

"When a man is rested in his true Being, he may be deeply involved in an intimate relationship, but it is not essential to his happiness. He knows he is happy alone."

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Whitewashing History

Friar Yid writes on Hirhurim: How can we claim to have an intellectual tradition that values knowledge if we deliberately lie about its history to advance propaganda? Doesn’t this show a tremendous lack of faith in Judaism’s intellectual merits on behalf of the Orthodox? Why can it not stand on its own? And if the only way Judaism and Jewish history can be perpetuated is as an uncorrupted, idyllic past (which young people can neither relate to nor live up to), exactly what good is it?

it seems to me that many people today like to criticize Gedolim of today as being unlike the greatness of the previous generation, while a few decades ago that generation was under fire from similar quarters.

But isn’t this a vicious cycle that has been perpetuated by the gedolim and those controlling the history and public memory? If you deify previous generations, of course you (the present leaders) will never be able to measure up– and you will also encourage suspicion and skepticism since even yeshiva bochurs know that people are imperfect. Covering up flaws, struggles, or miscellaneous information that doesn’t follow the gadol script makes it impossible for regular people to connect with them. What’s wrong with having Jewish heroes be, I don’t know, moderately interesting?

Gedolim who struggled to balance their interest, priorities, or even temptations in life are not compromised or precluded from being role models, rather, they are role models because they were able to overcome these issues. That should be the message being sent to young Jews, not a false history where everything was perfect, no Jews ever fought and the only thing we had to worry about were Cossacks.

YEHUDA POSTS: 1) Many things depend on the age of the person. Kids need not know everything.

2) Even adults need not know everything. As much as I value truth (and I really do), there are certain facts I know about my parents that I G-d willing will never tell my kids about. Perhaps we can apply this to history as well in certain circumstances?

3) I don’t buy the argument that you won’t/can’t strive to be like a great person unless it is clear that he struggled with many flaws. In my personal experience it is the exact opposite.

4) I don’t think every great man strggled with tremendous flaws. I believe in the existence of extraordinary men.

ANONYMOUS POSTS: I think the real issue is that you can’t fool all of the people all of the time, so it’s an almost irrelevant question. I’m not saying the internet changes everything forever, but just to give a tiny example. Pop the phrase "chaim berlin" into Google and the 4th and 5th links detail in excruciating, if not necessarily exactly fair or entirely accurate detail, scandals that seemed to have been dead and buried more than 25 years ago. I’m sure 8th grade Chaim Berliners aren’t supposed to go online, but I’m sure some do (even though most of them are probably looking up baseball scores and pictures of babes).

It may be that there is a reasonable and fair Chaim Berlin response to the Shlomo Carlebach thing, but the point is that it is no longer buried. Either they’ll respond or not, but how can that history be whitewashed now? This is but one example of literally thousands of possible things about the past which it would be inspiring to change or rewrite.

ARI POSTS: I would find it hard to believe that the internet did not increase the incidence of infidelity.

The internet reduced the cost of infidelity in terms of effort.

Most certainly, people have always had straying hearts. If the cost of infidelity was zero (attractive sex partners virtually throwing themselves you every day, easy ways not to get caught, little consequences if you do get caught, etc). then he incidence of infidelity would be at a maximum. If the cost is high, the incidence would be low.

Any communications technology reduces the cost of infidelity be it telephones, inexpensive paper (along with increased literacy).

Gil, how much did time did they take to mention that Reb Yaakov Emden wrote and said publicly that Reb Yehonasan Eybeschutz prostituted his daughter with his talmidim?

I’m not saying knowing this will kill Orthodoxy, but it’s certainly not great news for frum people, especially impressionable young ones, and it is getting a little tough to keep it out of inquiring minds. I know that Rabbi J.J. Schacter publicly said that he no longer has plans to translate Megillas Sefer, perhaps for the reason that he personally would rather not add fuel to this fire (it’s obviously no chiyuv for him to translate it). Well, what happens if some folks decide to create a Megillas Sefer wiki? Maybe Josh Waxman can translate it in installments for fun, like he did with the Vikuach on the Zohar.

> Why is it that we have to go to Christians for your theological justifications (in the broadest sense obviously)? Where are the spokesmen from our own people?

Because "Faith" is a Christian concept, not a Jewish one. "Emunah" isn’t faith. When the Torah talks about emunah, it means trust in God, not belief that God exists. The Torah takes it for granted that of course God (or Gods) exist. It’s only recently that Jewish Thinkers, mostly stealing from Christians, have started to emphasise faith. In fact the Torah is very evidence based, for example the parshah a few weeks ago talking about what the bnei yisrael saw and heard at Sinai. Why do you think that everytime Gil posts on this topic he’s quoting some Christian thinker? Or he’s quoting some modern Jewish THinker (e.g. Sacks) who in turn is quoting from a Christian. Where are Chazal on "Faith"? Nowhere.

Rebbe Nachman’s view of this (Sichot Haran #235):

"Don’t follow excessive stringencies in your practice of the Torah. “God does not rule over His creatures with tyranny” ( Avodah Zarah 3a) – “The Torah was not given to ministering angels” ( Berachot 25b) .

Our rabbis have taught that it is proper for each person to choose for himself one mitzvah to observe with particular care in all its fine details ( Shabbat 118b ). Yet even with your chosen mitzvah, you should not be excessively strict to the point of folly. Don’t let it make you depressed. Simply try to keep the mitzvah carefully in all its finer points, but without excessive punctiliousness.

As for the other mitzvot, simply follow the essential laws without adding extra stringencies. If only we could keep all the mitzvot of the Torah according to the simple interpretation of the law without seeking to go beyond it!

There is no need to look for extra stringencies: this is foolish and confusing. The essence of serving God is simplicity and sincerity. Pray much, study much Torah and carry out many good deeds without seeking out or inventing unnecessary restrictions. Simply follow the path of our forefathers. “The Torah was not given to ministering angels.”

There is nothing that you absolutely must do or else… If you can, you can. But if you cannot: “God exempts a person under duress” ( Bava Kama 28b)" .

CHARLIE HALL POSTS: I was once at a Shabat mean on Shabat Hagadol. Everyone went around the table and shared their nutty Pesach chumrot, each one nuttier than the next. When they came to me I explained that I didn’t really observe any Pesach chumrot, that the holiday was difficult enough as it was. Then I added as an afterthought that I don’t sell chametz but either eat it all before Pesach or give it away.

Everyone else at the table thought that *I* had the nuttiest chumrah!

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Yisroel Pensack: “Industrial Strength” Global Fundraising By Chabad For The New Year 5770

At first, I thought the return address said "CHABAD OF CRIME A" in Brooklyn, so I was wondering: What is the difference between "Crime A" and "Crime B", and what crimes do they stand for?  Then when I opened the envelope, I realized it was a fund solicitation letter on behalf of Chabad of the Crimea, a place in Eastern Europe.

Anticipating the obvious question, the letter asks:  "Why Chabad of Crimea?"  The answer:  "Yes — it’s a real place!  It’s the beautiful southern peninsula of Ukraine extending into the Black Sea…and home to 40,000 of our fellow Jews!"  The letter informed me that this area in the former Soviet Union is now the Autonomous Republic of Crimea.

Echoing but inverting the structure of the famous "ask not" quote from the inaugural address of JFK (the president — not the airport), the letter enjoined me to "Ask not what you can do for Chabad — ask what Chabad will do for You!"

"Here’s what Chabad will do for you," the letter said:  "Please fill [your name] in the message below [asking G-d for a year of blessings], so we may personally bring it to the leader of our generation, the [deceased] Lubavitcher Rebbe, so he may petition for you before G-d’s Throne of Mercy."  What a deal!  Plus, the letter says, if you act "now — for a limited time only", while the economic crisis continues, God will repay you a thousandfold for your donation, which is 100 times more than the regular tenfold reward He pays when the economy is not in crisis. (The letter says to see Rashi on Genesis 26:1-12.)

Separately, I also received in the same day’s mail a large, illustrated, multi-colored fund solicitation postcard from another Chabad-connected organization I had also never heard of before:  Tomchei Israel — Adopt A Family, with a Brooklyn return address.  In that postcard, Rabbi Menachem Mendel Gluckowsky of Chabad of Rechovot writes that "As a Rav in the central Chabad Beis Din in Israel, I personally witness many families struggling daily to provide food for their children, and the thought of the approaching Yomim Tovim is terrifying to them.  The situation is worsening and the amount of people in need is growing from year to year…

"Rapidly rising food prices and a poor economy only serve to push many struggling families further below the poverty line.  This leaves many members of Anash [the Chabad-Lubavitch chassidic community] and Shluchim [official Chabad-Lubavitch representatives] confronting the prospect of suffering the fate of a ruined Yom Tov."  

Shmuly Brashevitzky, secretary, and Mrs. Devorah Benjamin, treasurer, signed a solicitation letter I received on behalf of Keren Simchas Chosson V’Kallah (Fund for the Joyful Celebration of Bridegroom and Bride), also located in Brooklyn.  Noting that "We live in very difficult times," the letter says "our Shluchim, the lamplighters of Yiddishkeit, are also finding it increasingly hard [financially] to marry off their children…

"Over the past few years we have had the Zchus [merit] of helping more and more Shluchim marry off their children with dignity.  We are proud that we have been given this opportunity to be partners in Shlichus across the globe, but at the same time, these requests, which we cannot and will not refuse, have imposed an extra strain on our limited resources…

"The truth is, it is impossible for most of us to marry off our children without struggling.  How much more so is it for Yesomim [orphans] and the needy, not to mention our wonderful Shluchim!

"As you read this letter, please immediately place a generous check in the envelope we also enclosed…"

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Yisroel Pensack: Berkeley Mohel Battling Oral Cancer Wrote Rosh Hashanah Poem

This poem by the seriously ill mohel and Torah teacher Rabbi Chanan Feld was read to his Beit Midrash Ohr HaChaim congregation in Berkeley by his wife Jody on Rosh Hashanah: 

Rosh HaShanah
words from Rabbi Chanan Feld [HaRav Chanan Velvel Simcha ben Bryna]

We’re asked to be expansive.  Peer and project far
   beyond for another 365 days.
Another cycle of limudim, moadim, parshiot, life cycle
   events.
Posture of hope, confidence…our tshuva will be
   accepted….This is just the beginning!

The polar extreme of being consumed by the moment,
   the focus on each breath, sometimes every millisecond.
Sometimes those moments on the other side of
   our time and space.

Is it the dreamer’s imagination, flying unfettered
   over the days to come
Or the mindful one mining the moment of now,
   who experiences the true pulse?

Truth:
Rosh HaShanah is the head of a circle
   No beginning, no end
From "briat HaOlam" to the "geulah shleimah," one
   continuous flow

Eternity in each present, a year in each day,
   the entire universe in each second.

What will be our year to come?

Take a moment….Gaze on a loved one.
   Appreciate your community,
Your surroundings, the kedushah of Shabbat
   and Yom Tov.

Take a moment and feel my love for each and everyone
whose help, tehillim, tefillot, concern allowed me to
   write this.  One whose humbled spirit feels utterly
    grateful to all

That’s what our year will be, the eternally
    present love of HaShem.
That’s the moment of your now and year to come.

       Shana Tova Umetukah.
May Our Righteous Redeemer usher in Redemption
        for
     Klal B’nei Yisroel

                                   B’ahavah!

                                    Chanan

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The Unhappy Housewife

The unhappy housewife in one of John Updike’s final short stories says to her husband with tears in her eyes, "You don’t need me. You just need my asshole."

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Pathetic

A 40 plus woman, Jane*, was complaining to me the other day about a Hollywood executive.

They’d had dinner. It had been set-up by a family friend. Jane said the topic was this lofty social activism issue. She thought the man, about 70 years old, wanted to pick her brain.

Midway through the meal, the man remarks that he’s on a blind date.

"This guy was 30 years older than me," she says. "Yuck! He was not attractive. I couldn’t wait to get away. Pathetic. Who are these guys who think they can go out with the young stuff? I had no idea it was a date. I thought we were discussing…."

Yeah, well, few men are going to buy dinner for a woman simply to pick her brain about some lofty issue if there’s no chance of getting her in to bed. Sure, this drive may be pathetic, but what about the illusions of women who think their ideas are so lofty that men will have dinner with them solely to engage in intellectual talk?

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