Category Archives: Personal

Our First Date Was Amazing!

In 2003, I have this amazing first date. We meet for coffee. We talk for two hours. I buy us sandwiches. Then she gets in my serial killer van and we drive up the 1 to Malibu and walk hand … Continue reading

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How Do I Live With Passion?

I’m taking these Chinese herbs to help me sleep but they leave me a tad groggy during the day unless I’m excited. So I’m driving home in a daze last night and I had a sense memory of about a … Continue reading

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My Fear Of Abandonment II

* I tend to cling through hell and high water. Because of my fear of abandonment, I put up with more abuse than most BFs, so GFs to get rid of me, have to go bang someone else, at which … Continue reading

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My Fear Of Abandonment

How do you react when people start backing away? I tend to freak out. Even if I make no outward sign of being traumatized, my thinking becomes obsessed with solely the looming abandonment. My work and writing suffer. I can’t … Continue reading

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Love And Loss

* I usually see a gulf between the stability of those women I date who come from solid homes and those who come from broken homes. Women with troubled relationships with their father in particular are usually a horror to … Continue reading

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Pacific Union College – A Paradise Lost

A favorite memory of mine is driving up Howell Mountain Road to Pacific Union College (PUC), listening to “Open Arms” by Journey, getting ready to fall into the open arms of my Adventist friends. I didn’t have my first non-Adventist … Continue reading

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What Do I Do With My Regret?

On the one hand, I tell myself that given who I was, I couldn’t have acted differently in the past. There’s no reason to regret. In the present moment, I feel like I have free-will, but when I look over … Continue reading

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I’m Addicted To Girls Named Lisa

Hi, my name is Luke and I’m an addict. I’m addicted to girls named Lisa. Lisas are born Jewish. I’m a convert to Judaism. They’re the real deal. I stumble. They know Hebrew. I know Aboriginal. They’re little, I’m big. … Continue reading

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Dude, Where’s My Recovery?

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What I Learned From My Six-Month Performance Class

Last night was the last class in a six month program to create a solo show. LIST THE FEARS AND DOUBTS THAT KEEP ARISING: * I have a hard time getting as excited about describing the good things I’m doing … Continue reading

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