How Do You Stay Sane While Streaming?

How do you stay sane while moderating a lively Youtube discussion? How do you balance the competing needs of your audience, your ethics, and your guests? We can’t control other people, and yet we all exert a force field. We can’t force people to do what we want, but we influence others. Dennis Prager, for example, emits a strong moral force field. When Dennis walks into a room, people stand up and pay attention. They are profoundly affected by his presence. My force field, however, is weak.

Tehrani comments: You should be bloody proud to have created a channel where the audience gets to hear from so many diverse, strange & bizarre people.

It’s one of the weirdest, thought provoking channels I’ve ever encountered on YT.

I hope I don’t come off too stalkingly admirable, but I think the the lyrics to Radiohead’s ‘Creep’ come to mind when ever I listen to your streams.

As a fan, I don’t think I’m alone in relating to the following lyrics when listening to your streams, shows & ‘driving while advising’ vids:

“CREEP” – RadioHead
When you were here before
Couldn’t look you in the eye
You’re just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
And I wish I was special
You’re so fuckin’ special
But I’m a creep, I’m a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don’t belong here.
I don’t care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
When I’m not around
You’re so fuckin’ special
I wish I was special
But I’m a creep, I’m a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don’t belong here.
She’s running out again,
She’s running out
She’s run run run run
Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You’re so fuckin’ special
I wish I was special
But I’m a creep, I’m a weirdo,
What the hell am I doing here?
I don’t belong here.
I don’t belong here.

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Loneliness

I was inspired by this webinar by Alex Katehakis.

Far West comments: “I’ve asked myself the same question while feeling lonely at parties – “does anyone here care about me?” I like your therapists response. People will naturally begin to feel a connection with you when you take an interest in them.”

Claire: “There’s something deeply therapeutic about Luke’s musings.”

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Trump attacks ‘filthy’ Red Hen restaurant for turning away Sarah Huckabee Sanders

From The Independent:

Donald Trump has described a Virginia restaurant that refused to serve White House press secretary Sarah Huckabee Sanders as “filthy”.

The president hit out at the Red Hen restaurant in Lexington on Twitter, after it turned Ms Sanders and her family away last week because she worked for the Trump administration.

“The Red Hen Restaurant should focus more on cleaning its filthy canopies, doors and windows (badly needs a paint job) rather than refusing to serve a fine person like Sarah Huckabee Sanders,” he wrote. “I always had a rule, if a restaurant is dirty on the outside, it is dirty on the inside!”

On my show today, Kevin Michael Grace and company (Claire Khaw, Analytical Chick, Ecce Lux, and Dennis Dale) discussed this incident and the coming civil war.

MP3 of the show.

Claire Khaw blogs: I come in from the 14th minute.

56th minute  Why the Mexicans wouldn’t put up with an immigrant invasion the Americans have

On the average of a country affecting the National Character from 1:01

The feminine stratagem from 1:24 and Trump as alpha male of America and whether he is really in charge.

Trump backs down on migrant family separations policy

From 1:52 Kevin Grace quotes: “Privatise profits and socialise risks.”

We discuss Corporate America and the oligarchy. I was going to say the second American Revolution should abolish to oligarchy and have a one party state like China, but they started talking about Kevin’s avatar instead.

The US could become a one-party state without even having to change its constitution

Western democracy falters and looks to China

It was me who complained about Kevin’s avatar in a previous podcast, so I can’t complain now. I have previously suggested that his avatar should be a marijuana leaf.
After Analytical Chick and are removed, Luke invites the men to discuss women. Kevin complains about my Twitter behaviour and Secular Koranism then starts having a lovely time talking about his time as a thespian, bad British teeth and life goals.

Martin Amis novels discussed.

Muriel Spark and ageing is mentioned. Apparently, being old is better than growing old.

At 2:29 Kevin is asked if he is gay. There is a shocked silence and then ….

at 2:31 Kevin compares about being stalked by me and my tweets to him at https://twitter.com/search?l=&q=from%3Aminimumst8%20to%3AKMGVictoria&src=typd  which he says are like Another Tequila Sunrise.

https://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/eagles/tequilasunrise.html

Is Kevin the hired hand? Am I the woman runnin’ round while Kevin is enjoying his tequila nights and sunrises? With whom am I runnin’ round? Dennis Dale?

2:39  Kevin thinks I am nuts and a Muslim.

2:40  Luke Ford says he likes my comments on his videos.

2:41  Kevin Grace [grandly and portentously]: “I have realised the full import of Claire Khaw!”

Dennis Dale: “She is so right. You just reject her message because she is a woman, and an Asian woman.”

2:48  Kevin tells us of his thespian past.

2:52  Kevin very sweetly white knights for me.

David Icke

Tom Selleck

Tom Cruise

Psychiatry

3:06  Kevin caterwauls.

Their favourite movies

From 3:34  They talk about being being bullied at school. Kevin calls motiveless malignity Original Sin.

3:38 Ecce is complimented on his voice. I think it is a bookish preppy New England aristocracy voice. I imagine the narrator of The Great Gatsby having a voice like Ecce.

They are basically talking about their Yetzer Hara without using the word.

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My Rage, Resentment And Despair With Technology

Come July 3, I’ll have been blogging for 21 years, but I’ve never been ahead of the curve with technology. I only started using proper blogging software (WordPress) in 2006. I only started my Youtube channel in 2007. I only got an iPhone in 2016.

I was not one of the first guys in high school to learn to use a computer. I never took a computer class at Placer High School. I had peers well ahead of me in this respect. I did learn some computer skills writing for the Auburn Journal in my senior year, and then when I became the editor of the newspaper at Sierra Community College in the fall of 1985, I learned how to use a Mac.

I’ve always had this fear about technology, or just anything technical and practical. And not just fear, but impatience turning to rage and resentment and then despair when I couldn’t make things happened as I wished.

I was talking to someone close to me about this. We decided we had inherited this pattern. It was modeled to us in childhood and those neural pathways got so well worn, we haven’t been able escape them.

When JF Gariepy appeared on my show a few months ago, he said I’d get a lot more views if I did my videos more professionally. I know he’s right. I’ve always been more willing to expend effort to produce quantity rather than quality. My work history is frequently shoddy. “Careless” is my middle name.

So I’m in recovery now. I’m determined to up my game because I know that my habitual ways of doing things don’t work for me as I’d like. So I bought everything he recommended (including the BEHRINGER XENYX X1222USB sound mixer and the Shure SM7B Vocal Dynamic Microphone, Cardioid as well as a few things in addition (such as a standing desk, a topo standing mat, the RODE PSA1 Swivel Mount Studio Microphone Boom Arm, a polo shirt, and two Van Heusen dress shirts).

When the standing desk arrived, I read that it was simple to assemble, and yet I couldn’t do it. For one thing, my computer monitor cord was too short, so I had to order a longer one. I searched for videos with instructions on how to assemble the desk and there were’t any, so I sat on the ground and looked at the instructions and thoughts about how I could approach or pay people to help me and then I did a bit and a little more and then I set it aside for a few days until the cord arrived and one screw was missing, but I still got the desk working but the 30″ monitor seems shaky, who knows what it will do in an earthquake…

The togo mat was simple. I simply removed the plastic and put it on the floor and went to town on it.

The sound mixer bedevils me. I’ve watched all these videos on it and read the instruction manual but I don’t have a clue except I know that when I plug it into my computer, I can no longer get any sound in my headphones. I downloaded the Banana Voicemeeter that JF recommended but when I installed it, I could no longer get any sound into my headphones or speakers so I had to uninstall it.

I watched video after video about using Streamlabs OBS but I hardly have a clue about how I am going to transition to that platform and so I’m asking around for help.

This is how I’ve long dealt with my frightened approach to technology. I ask for help quickly, and when necessary, I pay for that help.

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Parasha Balak (6-24-18)

Listen.

From Chabad:

Balak, the king of Moab, summons the prophet Balaam to curse the people of Israel. On the way, Balaam is berated by his donkey, who sees, before Balaam does, the angel that G‑d sends to block their way. Three times, from three different vantage points, Balaam attempts to pronounce his curses; each time, blessings issue forth instead. Balaam also prophesies on the end of the days and the coming of Moshiach.

The people fall prey to the charms of the daughters of Moab, and are enticed to worship the idol Peor. When a high-ranking Israelite official publicly takes a Midianite princess into a tent, Pinchas kills them both, stopping the plague raging among the people.

* Num. 22:3: “Moab was terrified because there were so many people. Indeed, Moab was filled with dread because of the Israelites. 4 The Moabites said to the elders of Midian, “This horde is going to lick up everything around us, as an ox licks up the grass of the field.””

Numbers matter. Demographics matter. Fearing a powerful neighbor is normal.

* Balaam has supernatural gifts. I am open to people having such gifts. Perhaps God reaches out to those who reach out to him.

* How much do you care about other people blessing or cursing you?

* Wikipedia entry on Balak.

* When Pinchas kills the fornicators, that’s an intense solution to an intense problem — the public desecration of Judaism’s laws. It is one thing to sin privately, that can be ignored, but if you sin publicly, you’re asking for a response. The more intense the public sin, the more intense the response. What was the proper response to the decadence of Weimar Germany? What is the proper response to the decadence of Weimarica?

* Most men will give up everything for the opportunity to have sex with a hot chick. I see no reason to waste time denying or bemoaning this reality. Instead, we should accept it and design policy around it.

Women are not superior creatures because they have a lower sex drive (when did you last see a female leader fired for her bad sexual choices?). They are superior in the narrow sense that nature enables them to make less impetuous sexual choices just as nature has endowed men with greater strength and intelligence and courage to make sounder choices in other areas of life.

* Richard Spencer talks about the lawfare against him and the Alt Right. He discusses how almost every fundraising platform he’s joined, has then banned him. Well, when your stated platform is to overthrow the existing order, you have to expect this level of opposition.

* CNN reports:

HHS official listed work for anti-Islam show, conspiracy website on resume

(CNN)A far-right political pundit who was appointed to a post at the Department of Health and Human Services listed on her resume her past work on a conspiracy website and YouTube show where she made anti-Muslim comments, according to documents obtained by CNN’s KFile.

Ximena Barreto was placed on leave at the department in April following reports from CNN and Media Matters that she spread conspiracies and made anti-Muslim comments. She returned to work after issuing a public apology but was moved from her job as a deputy director of communications.
“Comments I made as I private citizen before I was hired at HHS were brought to light by concerned members of the press,” Barreto said in her apology at the time. “In the heated and hyper-passionate political campaign environment, I made generalized comments regarding race relations and radical Islam. I fully understand that these emotionally-charged comments were hurtful, and I deeply apologize to members of both communities.”
A copy of Barreto’s resume, obtained by CNN on Thursday through a Freedom of Information Act request, shows she listed her previous conspiratorial work on her resume as a qualification for the communication position.
The resume noted her work from June 2017 through the present on “The Right View” and on the Halsey News Network — YouTube shows she co-hosted where she said Islam was “a cult” and said the Republican Party shouldn’t allow a Muslim to run for Congress.

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The Bronze Age Mindset (6-22-18)


From Vox:

Who is Bronze Age Pervert?
That’s not altogether clear. His profile photograph is of an impossibly buff man facing away from the camera. His bio identifies him as an “Aspiring Nudist Bodybuilder. Free speech and anti-xenoestrogen activist.” He’s been cited to me by a number of sources familiar with the cultural landscape of something of a leadership figure among devotees of Pepe the Frog. He frequently condemns other alt-right figures, such as Richard Spencer, at times suggesting they might be in league with the FBI.

His posts veer between retweeting MRA rhetoric about “roasties” (slang for women with multiple sexual partners), claiming that Jordan Peterson plagiarized his suggestion of “enforced monogamy” from him (in an earlier forum post, he claimed women should be reduced to breeding stock), and celebrating on #HandsomeThursdays the physiques of chiseled, muscular Aryan and Slavic men. It’s not clear, in his internet-slang-laced posts, where performative trolling ends and authentic far-right views begin, nor does it necessarily matter.

Nobody knows who Bronze Age Pervert is. But among a subset of internet denizens, he’s something of a demigod: a Jordan Peterson in miniature. He was well-known enough for the neoreactionary and proto-alt-right thinker Curtis Yarvin (better known by his pseudonym, Mencius Moldbug) to name-check him in a recent interview with an Atlantic journalist, telling Rosie Gray that Bronze Age Pervert was his contact inside the White House. While this seems to have been an attempt to troll Gray, it speaks to Bronze Age Pervert’s relative notoriety within this tight community.

An anonymous follower of his on another neoreactionary blog declared him the leader of the alt-right in language that, though comically over the top, nevertheless speaks to the fundamental mythic tendency of these movements:

“Bursting away the built up rust of the last centuries so new myths may be sung. He frees us from the constrictions of historicism and geographism- placing the race question in the light of the Faustian imperial infinity. By having us all take up barbarism the Right is spared from the civcuck middling elements having too much a say … new culture will be anti-fragile to the attaqs against it, it will soon give us victory. Long live our liege lord.”

It’s, of course, ridiculous. But it’s also illustrative. What Peterson makes implicit, Bronge Age Pervert and his followers make explicit: the intersection of trolling (complete with language taken straight from Internet memes) and traditionalism. The traditionalist aesthetic allows for both an embrace of an imagined past — in which order is triumphant over chaos — and a thoroughly contemporary assumption of transgression.

Bronze Age Pervert is an embodiment of the strange and effective tension between nostalgia and transgression that makes men like Peterson so popular. His blend of say-anything internet irony, highly eroticized valorization of splendid “warrior” bodies, and atavistic appeals to return to an era when men were real men is as close as you can get to a distillation of the Petersonian essence.

In one tweet, Bronze Age Pervert posts a painting of a naked wood nymph with a thoroughly Nietzschean caption: “return of the maenads …… imagine being torn limb from limb by crazed bacchant-gril as irregular drums beat and very thin, circular demented melody plays on two flutes handled by goat-men … I want such death.”

In a Twitter DM interview, Bronze Age Pervert told me that he did not call himself a traditionalist “because there’s no tradition I can think of that I’m trying to preserve.” He looks, he said, to Homeric and Classical Greek thought, as well as to Tibetan Buddhism, but isn’t trying to “adopt or revive” them.

“Most traditions are hostile to beauty and excellence,” he said, although he believes in a “biological hierarchy” that privileges some traditions over others (he’s a fan of the French, the Greeks, the Japanese; he dislikes Ashkenazi Jews).

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Andy Nowicki: Why are Alt-Right leaders such dismal failures? (6-28-18)

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The Power Of Hollywood

I’ve had a CPAP since 2011 and used it off and on. Then this weekend I watched season two of Goliath on Amazon Prime, where the lawyer played by Billy Bob Thornton effortlessly uses the same type of CPAP as I have. So I went back to my CPAP this week and it was effortless. I was able to leave it on all night and reap better quality sleep as a result.

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Trump & The Jews

Nathan Cofnas tweets: “Trump’s biggest donors and closest advisors were Jews. Virtually all mainstream intellectuals were against him, Jew and gentile. He would not have won without Jewish support, and he wouldn’t have taken a strong stand on immigration without Miller.”

Chaim Amalek writes: “That’s like saying “Jesus’ biggest supporters and closest advisors were Jews” while skipping over the fact that but for the militant agitation of the Jewish establishment of His time – the jews of the Sanhedrin and the temple high priesthood – the Romans would not have bothered with Jesus. In the future, after the Hollywood Jews and the New York Times Jews and the Washington Establishment Jews have claimed Trump’s scalp (wigged or not), angry gentiles will come to regard Trump as their Jesus, destroyed as per the wishes of the Jewish establishment of our time. It won’t be fair, it won’t be right, but then, neither was the last 2,000 years of history for us Yidden.”

Nathan Cofnas tweets: “Jews are highly overrepresented among the top Republican intellectuals and political donors. There wouldn’t be (e.g.) a libertarian movement in any recognizable form without Jewish leadership, and even MacDonald never claimed that libertarianism is a Jewish intellectual movement.”

Chaim Amalek: “Which group benefits from having the goyim adopt a set of principles like libertarianism that real Torah Jews will never, ever adopt? If you can socially atomize those you secretly regard as your opposition, who benefits?”

Nathan Cofnas tweets: “I think you can simply observe people’s behavior and see that most people don’t tend to act in their ethnic group interest.”

Chaim Amalek: “On the issue of immigration into the USA, most non-whites certainly ARE acting in their group’s self interest. On the other hand, on this same issue and encouragement of Muslim (e.g., Somali) immigration into the US, the secular Jewish establishment is acting DIRECTLY contrary to Jewish interests. Go figure.”

Nathan Cofnas tweets: ” I don’t know about LA, but for sure less than 5% of white gentiles in NYC would agree that “America must protect and preserve its White European heritage.” But *most* orthodox Jews in NYC would probably agree.”

Chaim Amalek: “Would this question be asked under conditions of privacy sufficiently strong that the questioned believed they would have true anonymity in answering? If “Yes” then I expect many more than 5% of white gentiles would agree.”

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Bicyclists Behaving Badly

My experience with bicyclists in the middle of car traffic in Los Angeles is that they are horrible young men, and they feel no accountability to traffic law and common decency.

Steve Sailer writes: “But as bicyclists have become ever more the Establishment’s pets, their own behavior seems to be getting worse, such as running redlights. Cyclists often argue that they shouldn’t have to obey stoplights because accelerating is tiring for them, so they don’t bother with single most basic traffic law: stop on red. Of course, this makes them a menace to pedestrians, but pedestrians aren’t the fair-haired boys like cyclists.”

“Dedicated bike lanes with right of way so cyclists don’t have to cross intersections that cars are usuing are absolutely wonderful, especially in a scenic location, such as the 18 miles of Chicago lakefront bikepath, which I rode hundreds of times.”

COMMENTS:

* This is one of my pet peeves on the road. Cyclists seem to obey no law, but whatever suits their own convenience. Just today I saw a cyclist ride between two columns of car traffic while the cars were stopped on red. The cyclist then entered the intersection while still on red. As the light turned green and traffic began to flow both ways, suddenly he turned sharply left, making both the left lane of the same side traffic and the opposite traffic slam on the brakes and nearly causing a huge pile up.

This is not the first time I saw something like that. In another similar instance a couple of of weeks back, a cyclist was pulling a similar stunt and was hit very slightly by the opposing traffic. The cyclist stopped dead in the track, got off, and started to bang on the hood and the windshield of the stopped minivan, seemingly terrifying the woman driving that vehicle. When the rest of us started to get out of our cars to stop this lunatic, he got back on his bike and furiously pedaled away.

The woman got out to examine the damage to her car, and I saw that she had little kids inside. It was one of a very few times I wanted to give chase on the road and dole out a savage beating.

And I thought that driving cars made people feel stupidly invincible. Cyclists… ugh.

* It depends on how much work is done to add bike lanes. It’s hard to add that infrastructure. In Copenhagen and Amsterdam the separation between the bike lanes and car lane is more complete, often with a little raised divider, it’s hard to stray from one to another. It’s certainly not the same experience as in other places where bike lanes are hastily painted in onto the side of existing roads where there often isn’t space and bike lanes get chronically blocked.

If you ride a bike in Copenhagen and Amsterdam you never have to pay much attention to anything but other bikes, there are traffic lights just for bikes. It’s not stressful or potentially dangerous, it’s pleasant and fun; 99% of people don’t even wear helmets.

* In several decades and several hundred thousand miles of driving, I have logged exactly one accident. My car was parked, the key was out of the ignition, and after checking traffic behind me, I started to get out. The door instantly jumped off its hinges and a bent bicycle and a groaning man in cyclist kit mysteriously appeared on the ground several feet down the road.

It was night and the cyclist was pedaling along with traffic without a light, so he was invisible in the glare of the headlights he was amidst … until he hit my door edge-on.

The cops surveyed the situation and said they wouldn’t charge me even though it was technically illegal in that town to exit one’s vehicle on the driver’s side (which law they admitted no one obeyed).

I drove home with one hand while holding the bent door in place with the other.

* In countries where cycling is actually a common means of commuting, such as The Netherlands and China, cyclists obey the law. Enforcement works. Start ticketing cyclists for violations and they’ll do it here, too.

The problem here is that progressives treat them as a special class above such petty concerns as traffic laws. This is a shame, because it has made cycling primarily the domain of aggressive young men instead of a practical means of transportation for the masses.

* Dedicated bike lanes are desirable precisely because they keep cyclists off the sidewalks. In theory, bikes should be able to safely merge into regular automobile traffic and cars will accommodate, but in practice, too many people behind the wheel are playing with their cellphones or just plain drive like maniacs. I wouldn’t begrudge cyclists riding on the sidewalk for their own safety, except that most cyclists who approach me from behind don’t bother to ring a bell or shout a warning until they’re practically on top of me, and I have to essentially leap out of the way. I ride a bike occasionally, and find the most practical option for busy, gnarly intersections is just to dismount, walk it through the pedestrian crosswalks, and hop back on a little further down the road.

* I can’t help but think every bicyclist I see must have a death wish.

“The best thing you can do for the safely of cyclists is to separate them from cars in dedicated bike lanes. Not just stripes on the street that no one pays any attention to, but physically separated lanes. This is also safer for pedestrians because you know to look for bikes when crossing those lanes.

Cars and bikes are natural enemies – when I ‘m on a bike I hate drivers and when I’m driving I hate bicyclists, so the best thing to do is to keep the enemies apart.

Keep in mind though that in any car/bike conflict the car usually wins – you get a scratch on your car, the biker goes to the hospital (if he lives).

* My sister got off of the bus. Thing was, the bus stopped right next to a bike lane, and pedestrians have to cross the bike lane before reaching the sidewalk.

My sister is a 95 pound vegan and a cyclist rammed into her. She got knocked out and it shattered her clavicle.

If people want to ride their bikes around for recreation in the park, that’s great. But cycling is a horrendous form of transportation, unsafe for car drivers, cyclists, and pedestrians.

People should establish a form of public transportation for SWPLs. Uber is filling that niche better than anything else right now.

* Bicycles are the perfect Left Wing Smug machines – passively aggressive in how the biker shifts the burden for his or her own safety to the vehicular traffic on any given street or road and incandescently obnoxious in impairing the flow of traffic according to the rider’s whims according to no rule or law.

Bicycle riders seem to take great pleasure in holding motorists hostage at 10-15 MPH. I’m sure in an urban environment many have had the experience of the bicycle rider in front of the flow of traffic slowing down at least one lane to his leisurely pace, and then you get to a red light and think “I’ll just blow by him when it turns green” only to find that he violates the red signal and winds up in front of you by the time the light turns green – over and over again.

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