Category Archives: Personal

Letting Go Of The Rage

T: “Can you imagine what it would be like to let go of your rage at your parents and just live for you? What would your life look like?” L: “I’d be like a nuclear-powered submarine without any nuclear power. … Continue reading

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What I’m Learning From My Solo Show Class

It’s when I see my classmate Michael Kass perform that I realize what a one-man play is. I feel kinship with what he talks about. When he performs, I see what a performance looks like, what a solo show looks … Continue reading

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I Struggle To Connect From The Stage

I intended to talk about my experience of working the 12 steps for recovery from emotional addictions but get sidetracked into discussing my preacher daddy, how my HD big screen tempts me, how I’m a genius and all sorts of … Continue reading

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STEP FOUR OF THE TWELVE STEPS

I blogged out my first three steps. One Two Three I went to meetings for a year before I bought the book and started working the 12 Steps. It was hard going at first because I’d never hit bottom. I’d … Continue reading

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My Genius

I was telling my therapist Monday night that I’ve always known, always had a rock solid belief in my own genius when it comes to writing and public speaking. In these two small narrow areas I feel confident that there’s … Continue reading

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The Dynamics Of Sexual Excitement

In 1999, I joined JDate and met exactly one woman. She was a doctor, just my type. I like powerful competent people. They excite my fantasies of rescue. We exchanged messages and emails and talked on the phone and finally … Continue reading

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God Is Doing Amazing Things In My Life!

When I quit writing on the porn industry in October of 2007, I had no debt and $6,000 in the bank. Over the next five years, I took on $44,000 in credit card debt, $25,000 from my family, and another … Continue reading

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Ingraining Bad Posture

In early 1985, I had the cleaning and gardening contract at the Boyne Island Shopping Centre in Queensland, Australia. I was 18. Early one evening, I was watching the local news and lifting buckets of bricks to build my body. … Continue reading

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Western Union Fraud From My Bank Of America Checking Account

Yesterday somebody sent themselves $615 via Western Union from my checking account, so today when I discovered this, I filed a fraud claim with Bank of America, closed my account and opened another one. A friend told me this happened … Continue reading

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Where Did I Have To Make A 180-Degree Turn?

At the beginning of the story, what is the truth of the character and what is the lie? The truth I kept telling myself through my 40s was that through sheer application of my will power, I could achieve anything. … Continue reading

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