Category Archives: Personal

‘This Is How You Write About Someone You Love?’

In 1998, I met a woman at synagogue. We started talking. I found her attractive, smart and accomplished. She had a PhD. She’d dated this rabbi I admired. I started going out with this woman. After a few dates, I … Continue reading

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Running Across The Six Lanes Of I-80

We lived a mile from Auburn, CA, when I went to Placer High School (10-12th grade). I liked to shorten my journey home by running across the six lanes of Interstate 80 through the middle of town. When my father … Continue reading

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Let’s Talk About Suicide

From New Times Los Angeles January 28, 1999: “You need to understand Luke’s background to understand the foolish things that he’s doing,” offers Dr. Ford. “He was separated from his mother when she was declared to be a terminal patient … Continue reading

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Luke Ford and Success

Lewis Fein posts to FB: I ran a Google Image Search for “Luke Ford and Success,” and found this. For real. Your honor, the State rests.

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My One And Only

I used to talk a big game when I lived at Rieber Hall at UCLA in 1988-89. I was on a special self-selected quiet floor for serious students. I was working on this explicit novel. I met a Chinese girl … Continue reading

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October 27, 1979 – The Day My Life Changed

The first person to ignite my love for reading was Joan Patrick at Avondale College. Before I even started school in second grade, I was at her home (she and her husband Arthur had about five kids) and she gave … Continue reading

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The Desmond Ford Apostasy

I just searched my father’s name on youtube and found many of his videos. I also found one I couldn’t resist listening to, “The Desmond Ford Apostasy.” I can’t help myself. I’m intrigued. What exactly was my father’s apostasy? I’m … Continue reading

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Who Do I Frighten People?

Why do I frighten people? Is it my brusque disregard in the pursuit of my ends? When you think about others, you can’t be enraged and you can’t frighten. (Stephan Poulter) Seduction is the most intoxicating thing in the world … Continue reading

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The Dark Lens

I remember my Seventh-Day Adventist childhood at Avondale College through a dark lens. The following paragraph is 100% emotionally true for me but not always 100% fair and 100% factual. Breaking the Sabbath! Big sin! Whack! Listening to the Beatles! … Continue reading

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I Grew Up With All The Signs Of Becoming A Serial Killer

According to Dr Phil’s signs of a future serial killer, I pretty much have them all (Kendra Jade was the first person to point this out to me, she had a great fascination with serial killers and read many books … Continue reading

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