So I was whining about my sadness to my therapist tonight (this feeling was brought on by an amazing meal I had on Rosh Hashanah and how happy I am with my friend and that made me sad when I thought about the 95% of my life spent without such connection), and she told me to focus instead on the positive actions I could take to improve my life. And I felt, can’t we wallow just a little longer in my desolation? I only enjoy about 1% of the people I meet. The rest? I may try to develop a conversation but I feel myself forcing and working at it and I get tired and I feel sick and I just want to be alone. I dig mismatchers, my personality type, people who look for what doesn’t match. Mismatchers tend to have few friends. Duh.
* I’m going to make a fortune delivering educational testing that is not racially biased, allowing disadvantaged minority kids to feel good about themselves and gain proportionate entrance (according to their percentage of the population) into the elite kindergartens of America. I plan to de-emphasize language skills, which are inherently racist, and instead focus on problem solving, lateral thinking and spatial awareness.
* Shul is much less formal than church. In shul, people will tell you what is on their mind, unless you have a well-read blog, and then even the most forthright will be circumspect about humiliating you publicly. Nobody has messed with me publicly in shul in many years because they know I’ll write them up if they try to bully and demean in a way that crosses the line (I’m fine with teasing and will put up with most any joshing from friends, we all know when somebody is out to wound us).
* I lust for the money, fame and success of people on TV like the news readers, interviewers, sportscasters etc but they can only have that success as long as they hue to the Narrative. For instance, Paul Zimmerman of Sports Illustrated was never asked back on ESPN after he gave an opinion on air that most football players were taking illegal supplements. If you said anything that threatened the public’s perception of the game you were announcing, you wouldn’t be asked back. This would go for many political and social issues as well.
According to Wikipedia: “While covering the NFL draft for ESPN in the ’80s, Zimmerman was asked what the NFL player of the ’90s would be like. Zimmerman responded, controversially, “The player of the ’90s will be so sophisticated that he’ll be able to pass any steroid test they come up with,” ending his television career.”
* In my little world and in the news media, I frequently see whites attacking each other for being racist but I rarely see blacks, latinos and asians attacking each other for being racist. What am I missing?
Steve Sailer: “Have you ever noticed that white prison gangs are always described as “white supremacist,” but black prison gangs and Mexican prison gangs are never described as “black supremacist” and “Mexican supremacist?””
