This has always been the hardest part of religion and 12-Step work for me. I want to do my own thing but only when that keeps resulting in disaster for me do I reluctantly turn back to God and then my inclination is to only turn to God as much as necessary and not a degree further to keep from disaster.
I find myself going through the day yearning to do all sorts of things that I know are not God’s will for my life. I don’t like this question — am I willing to align my will with God’s will? It’s too painful.
A way of phrasing the question for an atheist is — am I willing to align my will with what is in my ultimate interest? Or am I going to spend much of my time yearning for things that I know are bad for me?