Category Archives: Addiction

Rodger Jacobs, RIP

Posted on July 31, 2016 by Luke Ford

The coroner’s report shows that Rodger drank himself to death on July 5, 2016. He was 57. I never met Rodger Jacobs in person but he was in my life for a decade (from 1998 to 2005, he was in … Continue reading →

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‘Fear Fades With Repetition’

Posted on July 24, 2016 by Luke Ford

In talk 50 of the Beginners Talks at Underearners Anonymous, the founder of the program, Andrew says: * Underearning is a disease of hiding. In terms of visibility, fear fades with prayer. Fear fades with action. Fear fades with repetition. … Continue reading →

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Overcoming Under-Earning

Posted on July 24, 2016 by Luke Ford

I’m listening to Peter give the latest share from the Underearners Anonymous beginners phone meeting on Sundays at 8am PDT: For me not to under-earn today, I have to be bigger than I think I am. My first recording was … Continue reading →

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Eroticized Rage

Posted on July 10, 2016 by Luke Ford

From Neil Strauss’s book The Truth: An Uncomfortable Book About Relationships: “The payoff of anger is mastery, control, or power,” Lorraine continues. “So the anger makes you feel better and one up. And when you use sex to restore power … Continue reading →

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My addiction means I’m rarely present

Posted on June 30, 2016 by Luke Ford

I had a GF who was hot and smart, but her best quality was her quality of being intensely present. It would disconcerted some people but I loved it. I never had to explain myself to her because she could … Continue reading →

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