Category Archives: Addiction

Sex and Love Addiction: 40 Questions for Self-Diagnosis

From SLAA: The following questions are designed to be used as guidelines to identifying possible signposts of sex and love addiction. They are not intended to provide a sure-fire method of diagnosis, nor can negative answers to these questions provide … Continue reading

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I Gave Up My Favorite Hobby

I would never have given up my favorite hobby if not for the challenge lain down by addiction specialist Brad Salzman. While battling my sex addiction demons, I greatly benefited from talking with therapist Brad Salzman (a mentch and an … Continue reading

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How Bad Would It Have To Get?

If you know you’re a narcissist, why wouldn’t you get psycho-therapy? I guess the pain has to become so intense that you finally seek help. Changing religions, geography, jobs won’t affect a deep-rooted problem like narcissism. While it may not … Continue reading

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I Grew Up With All The Signs Of Becoming A Serial Killer

According to Dr Phil’s signs of a future serial killer, I pretty much have them all (Kendra Jade was the first person to point this out to me, she had a great fascination with serial killers and read many books … Continue reading

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STEP FOUR OF THE TWELVE STEPS

I blogged out my first three steps. One Two Three I went to meetings for a year before I bought the book and started working the 12 Steps. It was hard going at first because I’d never hit bottom. I’d … Continue reading

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God Is Doing Amazing Things In My Life!

When I quit writing on the porn industry in October of 2007, I had no debt and $6,000 in the bank. Over the next five years, I took on $44,000 in credit card debt, $25,000 from my family, and another … Continue reading

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Where Did I Have To Make A 180-Degree Turn?

At the beginning of the story, what is the truth of the character and what is the lie? The truth I kept telling myself through my 40s was that through sheer application of my will power, I could achieve anything. … Continue reading

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Notes For My One-Man Play

WHAT IS THE FIRST IMAGE PEOPLE SEE IN A POSTER OF MY STORY? Headline: “Eroticized Rage: One Man’s Struggle With Sex Addiction” And pair that provocative headline with the most happy tranquil innocent photo of my present self. WHAT DO … Continue reading

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Eroticized Rage, Sex Addiction, Love Addiction & The 12 Steps To Recovery

I did 40 minutes of spontaneous reflection and story telling in my class last night. I hope to have a solid one-man play by April. Related links: Here and Here.

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Stepping Into My First 12-Step Meeting

I went to my first 12 Step meeting in April of 2011 because I realized through psycho-therapy that eroticized rage was a poison in my life, even though I only expressed it through socially acceptable means (such as jokes and … Continue reading

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