Category Archives: Personal

The Tranquility And The Rage

I want to float on an air mattress on Lake Berryessa with my girlfriend and to feel all the elements, the sun, the water, the thunder and lightning, the tranquility and the rage. Stephanie* would’ve dropped her swimmers for me. … Continue reading

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Terror On The Road

I was in more than my share of car accidents when I was a child. I found them terrifying. I remember this one woman who was quite attractive. We were traveling with a goat and I told the goat to … Continue reading

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Infected By Shame

A couple of weeks ago, my blog was infected by some virus that tried to install malware on the computers that visited me (Google quickly blocked my site when I got infected). I feel that shame has similarly infected my … Continue reading

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I Hate Losers Who Attach Themselves To Me Because They Think I’m One Of Them

I’ve lived my life slightly more popular than the loser crowd and significantly less popular than the popular crowd. My social status hasn’t changed much since I entered school in second grade. As a bachelor, I naturally orient upwards in … Continue reading

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The Hole In Your Soul

Told a friend: “The hole in your soul can never be filled by sexual conquests, but only by God.” He said, “Attributing sexual conquest to me is like accusing the Poles of abusing the Germans.”

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I Want To Make Amends

For my own sanity, I need to make amends to the people I’ve hurt, so long as making the amends doesn’t inflict further hurt. I’m working the Fourth Step now, “making a complete and fearless moral inventory.” Actually making amends … Continue reading

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I Hate To Go Home

I usually finish work about 5 p.m., but I hate to go home. One night a week I have psycho-therapy. Two nights a week, I go to 12-step meetings for my various emotional addictions. And one night a week I … Continue reading

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Imagine My Surprise

I went to writing class last night to read my essay on why Jewish men chase shiksas only to have the tall blonde newcomer share first her story about her love of Jewish ****.

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Who Do I Hate?

I believe in God. I don’t believe that my instincts are right more than 50% of the time. I believe that I’m an addict to sex, love, fantasy, and co-dependent relationships. If I follow my own will, I’m lost. I … Continue reading

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It Helps To Have No Feelings

If you have no feelings, you don’t wince when you carve up people. You’re as cold as ice. You’re a surgeon. Your job is to cut people up. Sometimes you heal them and sometimes you kill them (even the best … Continue reading

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