I’m listening to Matt’s talk, number 113.
Matt: “This is my fourth program. I balked at first.”
“My troubles as an under-earner were of my own making.”
“Victims don’t have a choice… Having had a spiritual awakening, I get the power of conscious choice back. I see that I am never disconnected from God, myself and other people. I can feel disconnected.
“Untreated under-earning will lead me to death. It might be a quick death. For example, I was going through a stretch of exertion-exhaustion. I caught a thought recently where I said to myself, ‘I am so tired. I don’t know how to slow down. Maybe I could get into a car accident, not a bad one, just so I could stay in a hospital for a few days and then I could just rest.’ That’s the under-earning thinking.”
“Staying in the cave…is suicide. This program requires that I grow in public, that I expose myself, that I expand, and that I do it in relationship.”
“As a victim, I don’t have choice. The only antidote is entitlement. My mom abused me so somebody owes me a job or my wife owes me this or my dad wasn’t there for me, so my boss owes me. It doesn’t make sense, but the thinking is entrenched.
“When I sell myself short, I find that a lot of people are buying. There is no shortage of people who will support me in my misery. It is important that I stay close to people who are living the light of this program.”
