High Anxiety

I got up at 6:30 this morning, took a shower, cooked some oatmeal and turned on my computer.

As I was reading the New York Times, my monitor shut off with the message, “Monitor is going to sleep!”

Nooooo! I had this problem a month ago. My screen would go crazy and then the monitor would shut off.

I have a Windows XP HP workstation xw4400. About six months, I got an HP S2331 23″ LCD monitor.

In early December, I used a system restore to go back about two weeks and then everything was fine for a month.

When today’s problem occurred, I went off to shul. I studied a page of Talmud with the rabbi. I said my prayers. And then I rushed home to wrestle with my computer.

Using my Blackberry, I Googled the problem. I did a system restore to ten days previous. I booted up in safe mode and changed the display settings. And for the past hour everything has been fine.

I hope all will be well for at least the rest of the day so I can watch the crucial Dallas-New York football game tonight to determine who wins the NFC East and goes to the playoffs.

My anxiety is slowly subsiding. I had these visions that my computer was done and I’d need to buy a need one. Or maybe it was not done, but it would need repair and I wouldn’t have access to it for a day or two and then they wouldn’t be able to fix the problem. So, yes, I was catastrophizing.

My left shoulder is tight. I was walking an old man the other day and he was holding my arm for support.

I feel better now that I’ve shared my anxiety.

About Luke Ford

I've written five books (see Amazon.com). My work has been covered in the New York Times, the Los Angeles Times, and on 60 Minutes. I teach Alexander Technique in Beverly Hills (Alexander90210.com).
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