"There was anguish – excruciating anguish – for her in dealing with this," Elizabeth’s best friend Hargrave McElroy tells PEOPLE in its new issue.
Behind the public show of strength, the Edwards’ household has been a scene of turmoil and tension since John, 55, first began revealing the truth about his affair with former campaign aide, Rielle Hunter, 44, after the formal launch of his campaign in the final days of 2006. "He told the truth slowly," according to one source close to the couple.
Elizabeth, 59, faced an agonizing choice: "Do I kick him out, or do we have a 30-year marriage that can be rebuilt?" says McElroy. The fact that she suffers from a terminal disease, one that could rob her children – Jack, 8, Emma Claire, 10 and Cate, 26, a student at Harvard Law School – of their mother, weighed heavily in her decision.
"She couldn’t say, ‘Well, maybe we’ll work through this for years, or maybe we should separate for two years,’" adds Elizabeth’s best friend. "[The cancer] forced her to choose whether to move forward."
