I’m In A Funk

It’s Saturday night.

I’m still getting over my cold.

I feel sluggish.

I’m hanging out in my chat room:

YourMoralLeader:  oy, i feel like i should be more entertaining
YourMoralLeader:  gimme some scoop!
guest23:  Leah Kleim found another satmar
guest23:  doing the nasty
guest8:  hi
guest8:  wave
guest8:  let me see if you are real
GROVER:  what do you think of alex jones luke?
guest8:  now smile
guest8:  sing a song
YourMoralLeader:  wrote history of NY Times? love him
guest8:  I am a social worker are you depressed?
guest23:  the 10 sons of haman!
YourMoralLeader:  "Luke is bipolar" she said. "He won’t take his lithium. He’s too vain. he doesn’t like the weight it puts on."
guest8:  do you have manic phase?
guest23:  de-funk!! YAY
YourMoralLeader:  all my mates are getting married, mortgages kids but i’m not making much progress
YourMoralLeader:  8, yes I do
guest8:  what do you want in life?
YourMoralLeader:  I am not bipolar, but I have some tendencies in that direction. I take the lithium as needed. it puts on too much weight
YourMoralLeader:  To write, to have closer friendships, get married. I feel very lonely much of the time
YourMoralLeader:  lithium is great, but severe side effects, so i keep it in the bullpen for when I start going to a dark place
GROVER:  you dont have an accent like most  ozzies not the  earthy accent luke
guest8:  do you have friends?
YourMoralLeader:  yes
guest8:  thats good
guest8:  focus on the postive aspects of your life
YourMoralLeader:  i find this chatroom staunches my loneliness
guest8:  thats good
guest8:  have you been married before
YourMoralLeader:  i meet people through my blogging
YourMoralLeader:  never
guest8:  do you want to get married?
YourMoralLeader:  i’m bit of a histrionic narcissist
YourMoralLeader:  Yes
guest8:  do you socialize at all
YourMoralLeader:  i’m a drama queen
YourMoralLeader:  yes
GROVER:  maybe your a cia plant?
guest8:  drama queen?
guest8:  in what way?
YourMoralLeader:  mainly through Orthodox Judaism/writers = my social life
YourMoralLeader:  it shows in my blogging 8 the drama queen
guest8:  how old are you?
YourMoralLeader:  42
guest8:  do you enjoy your life?
YourMoralLeader:  I found lithium, clonidine takes the edge of my narcissism, histrionic tendnencies
YourMoralLeader:  yes
guest8:  ok
guest8:  so you have found a path
YourMoralLeader:  yes
guest8:  that satisfies you?
YourMoralLeader:  yes
guest8:  you know marriage is not for everyone
YourMoralLeader:  i hope it is for me
guest8:  perhaps living this way works best for you
YourMoralLeader:  noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
guest8:  well
guest8:  do you see girls
YourMoralLeader:  yes
guest8:  have been on any dates?
YourMoralLeader:  i find sex the best medication
guest8:  do you have sex with them?
YourMoralLeader:  i don’t lack for female companionship, thank G-d, but want to settle down with one.
GROVER:  so let me get this straight your an ozzy jew living in cali who likes alex jones!
guest8:  well did you ever pop the question
YourMoralLeader:  No 8, the women I’ve wanted to marry have not wanted me and the women who wanted to marry me, I have not admired enough to want to marry
GROVER:  wow it really is  a strange world after all
guest8:  well the one that wants to marry you
YourMoralLeader:  The woman I want to marry — this needs to be a woman I admire, respect, would be proud to be associated with
guest8:  perhaps you should consider
guest8:  no one is perfect
mizzmoze:  want what you cant have and what want s you ,push away
guest8:  find a good women with a good heart
mizzmoze:  is that not a fear of intimacy liuke?
guest8:  a good heart gives you everything
mizzmoze:  true true
guest8:  otherwise , perhaps you are afraid of marriage
YourMoralLeader:  I need a wife who is reliable and responsible, who fills in my weaknesses, someone breathtakingly commonsensical and level-headed
guest8:  and fall back and justify in staying single by saying the right one does not want you
guest8:  you cannot find all in one
mizzmoze:  im here!!!!
guest8:  sometimes you settle for second best
guest8:  and that works to
mizzmoze:  the all in one package!
guest8:  so sex is the best medication
GROVER:  alex jones believes sept 11 2001 was perpatrated by the usa government. / do you believe that Luke?
guest8:  how often do you need it?
guest23:  he is often over medicated
mizzmoze:  behavior modification,in extremes,will lead you to mental wellness,and off meds
guest8:  do you see a therapist
GROVER:  its ok i wont put you on a no fly list
mizzmoze:  change your,thinking,scting,feeling and behaving..a long journey to wellness and healing
YourMoralLeader:  This Alex Jones I admire — not the conspiracy theorist crank. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alex_Jones_%28journalist%29
YourMoralLeader:  8, I do not currently see a therapist
YourMoralLeader:  but if my reality show goes, i want to make that an important part of it
YourMoralLeader:  I stopped for $$$ reasons
YourMoralLeader:  I see a shrink every 3 months to adjust my meds
mizzmoze:  read ,apply,pray,
YourMoralLeader:  I need love at least once a week or two to stay level
mizzmoze:  i could use a daily dose of real good love myself
YourMoralLeader:  I find…does more for my mood, sense of self-esteem, well being than meds and almost anything
GROVER:  if you r  a truth seeker you surely see the Bush gov is lieing about 911
User GROVER was banned by broadcaster/admin.
User GROVER left the room.
mizzmoze:  its the best natural relaxer,mood stabilizer,and natural pain relaxant
guest23:  this music makes you happy… what makes you sad?
guest23:  heavy metal?
YourMoralLeader:  the feeling of futility, not moving ahead, makes me sad
mizzmoze:  so you are busy all day writng and what else do you do luke?
mizzmoze:  i work hard on healing
guest23:  and if you stay in the same place
YourMoralLeader:  mizz, that’s about it
YourMoralLeader:  and studying how to monetize my work
YourMoralLeader:  and reading/religion/socializing
mizzmoze:  i live in the woods near the ocean,alot of peace and quiet,healing,nature and i love it
YourMoralLeader:  I’ve always had one friend who just plays a huge role in my life… when cathy seipp died, that was a huge chasm. Now I have a new friend…
mizzmoze:  i have also lost too many close family and friends
YourMoralLeader:  my best friends tend to be writers or mental health pros
mizzmoze:  I am a mental health counselor and a nurse
mizzmoze:  work mostly with addictions
mizzmoze:  and emergency room
YourMoralLeader:  how do you like your work?
mizzmoze:  I love to help people!
YourMoralLeader:  great
YourMoralLeader:  must be intense and interesting
mizzmoze:  yes,very challengng
mizzmoze:  alot of you ng kids hooked on the neddles
mizzmoze:  needles
mizzmoze:  ya know its tough fro them to quit or change
YourMoralLeader:  why did you choose this work?
mizzmoze:  itis a powerful drug,
YourMoralLeader:  can sex/seduction be a drug? an addiction?
mizzmoze:  my mother was a nusre and a nurterer
mizzmoze:  my fathers pain became ours
mizzmoze:  i healed and went on to help others
mizzmoze:  give away what i was given so to say
mizzmoze:  yes it can
mizzmoze:  but it wont kill you
QuixoticLass:  it can kill you if you aren’t careful
QuixoticLass:  if you choose your partners poorly
maven:  hey luke, i was hoping you were giving up posting these camstream dialogues …
mizzmoze:  in comparism with social drugs i menat
mizzmoze:  why??
mizzmoze:  it might be his sanity
YourMoralLeader:  cutting back
maven:  ok, because otherwise I’ll have to find some other way to waste time at work
maven:  you know, when you look at that angle, and with your beard getting grey, you are starting to look like Charlton Heston coming off of the burning bush encounter.
YourMoralLeader:  calling my mom
maven:  Perhaps you can recite the ten commandments slowly
YourMoralLeader:  in australia
guest23:  did you send flowers?
YourMoralLeader:  only to women I sleep with
YourMoralLeader:  I don’t sleep with my mom — against the Torah
guest23:  before or after?
YourMoralLeader:  varies 23
guest23:  deflower during
maven:  "you are not a god, you are not even a man" is the only line I can recall from the movie
maven:  Come on, you ought to be able to do at least one Charlton Heston line with that beard.
guest23:  no love ya?
guest23:  kisses to the Mum that raised you
YourMoralLeader:  how does one become the chief rabbi of Ukraine?
guest23:  practice
maven:  connections.
guest23:  $$$$
maven:  Is he Chabad?
QuixoticLass:  First, you should be fluent in Ukranian
YourMoralLeader:  never seen the movie maven
guest23:  hard enuf following them
maven:  Then stop calling yourself a jew
User guest14 ( entered the room.
maven:  its mandatory. like exodus, cast a giant shadow, if I were on guard duty I’d find that reason to think you were an infiltrating imposter
Sid:  when were you last in Oz, Luke?
YourMoralLeader:  2000
maven:  There are articles in Forward about controversies over the rabbinate in Ukraine bettween Chabad and others, but that name doesn’t show.
guest23:  The Karliner chasidim are known for their custom to scream when praying. They are also known for their hospitality.
guest23:  they scream when they are being hospitable
guest23:  Matisyahu is now a Stoliner

About Luke Ford

I've written five books (see Amazon.com). My work has been noted in the New York Times, the Los Angeles Times, and 60 Minutes. I teach Alexander Technique in Beverly Hills (Alexander90210.com).
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