It’s Saturday night.
I’m still getting over my cold.
I feel sluggish.
I’m hanging out in my chat room:
YourMoralLeader: oy, i feel like i should be more entertaining
YourMoralLeader: gimme some scoop!
guest23: Leah Kleim found another satmar
guest23: doing the nasty
guest8: hi
guest8: wave
guest8: let me see if you are real
GROVER: what do you think of alex jones luke?
guest8: now smile
guest8: sing a song
YourMoralLeader: wrote history of NY Times? love him
guest8: I am a social worker are you depressed?
guest23: the 10 sons of haman!
YourMoralLeader: "Luke is bipolar" she said. "He won’t take his lithium. He’s too vain. he doesn’t like the weight it puts on."
guest8: do you have manic phase?
guest23: de-funk!! YAY
YourMoralLeader: all my mates are getting married, mortgages kids but i’m not making much progress
YourMoralLeader: 8, yes I do
guest8: what do you want in life?
YourMoralLeader: I am not bipolar, but I have some tendencies in that direction. I take the lithium as needed. it puts on too much weight
YourMoralLeader: To write, to have closer friendships, get married. I feel very lonely much of the time
YourMoralLeader: lithium is great, but severe side effects, so i keep it in the bullpen for when I start going to a dark place
GROVER: you dont have an accent like most ozzies not the earthy accent luke
guest8: do you have friends?
YourMoralLeader: yes
guest8: thats good
guest8: focus on the postive aspects of your life
YourMoralLeader: i find this chatroom staunches my loneliness
guest8: thats good
guest8: have you been married before
YourMoralLeader: i meet people through my blogging
YourMoralLeader: never
guest8: do you want to get married?
YourMoralLeader: i’m bit of a histrionic narcissist
YourMoralLeader: Yes
guest8: do you socialize at all
YourMoralLeader: i’m a drama queen
YourMoralLeader: yes
GROVER: maybe your a cia plant?
guest8: drama queen?
guest8: in what way?
YourMoralLeader: mainly through Orthodox Judaism/writers = my social life
YourMoralLeader: it shows in my blogging 8 the drama queen
guest8: how old are you?
YourMoralLeader: 42
guest8: do you enjoy your life?
YourMoralLeader: I found lithium, clonidine takes the edge of my narcissism, histrionic tendnencies
YourMoralLeader: yes
guest8: ok
guest8: so you have found a path
YourMoralLeader: yes
guest8: that satisfies you?
YourMoralLeader: yes
guest8: you know marriage is not for everyone
YourMoralLeader: i hope it is for me
guest8: perhaps living this way works best for you
YourMoralLeader: noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
guest8: well
guest8: do you see girls
YourMoralLeader: yes
guest8: have been on any dates?
YourMoralLeader: i find sex the best medication
guest8: do you have sex with them?
YourMoralLeader: i don’t lack for female companionship, thank G-d, but want to settle down with one.
GROVER: so let me get this straight your an ozzy jew living in cali who likes alex jones!
guest8: well did you ever pop the question
YourMoralLeader: No 8, the women I’ve wanted to marry have not wanted me and the women who wanted to marry me, I have not admired enough to want to marry
GROVER: wow it really is a strange world after all
guest8: well the one that wants to marry you
YourMoralLeader: The woman I want to marry — this needs to be a woman I admire, respect, would be proud to be associated with
guest8: perhaps you should consider
guest8: no one is perfect
mizzmoze: want what you cant have and what want s you ,push away
guest8: find a good women with a good heart
mizzmoze: is that not a fear of intimacy liuke?
guest8: a good heart gives you everything
mizzmoze: true true
guest8: otherwise , perhaps you are afraid of marriage
YourMoralLeader: I need a wife who is reliable and responsible, who fills in my weaknesses, someone breathtakingly commonsensical and level-headed
guest8: and fall back and justify in staying single by saying the right one does not want you
guest8: you cannot find all in one
mizzmoze: im here!!!!
guest8: sometimes you settle for second best
guest8: and that works to
mizzmoze: the all in one package!
guest8: so sex is the best medication
GROVER: alex jones believes sept 11 2001 was perpatrated by the usa government. / do you believe that Luke?
guest8: how often do you need it?
guest23: he is often over medicated
mizzmoze: behavior modification,in extremes,will lead you to mental wellness,and off meds
guest8: do you see a therapist
GROVER: its ok i wont put you on a no fly list
mizzmoze: change your,thinking,scting,feeling and behaving..a long journey to wellness and healing
YourMoralLeader: This Alex Jones I admire — not the conspiracy theorist crank. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alex_Jones_%28journalist%29
YourMoralLeader: 8, I do not currently see a therapist
YourMoralLeader: but if my reality show goes, i want to make that an important part of it
YourMoralLeader: I stopped for $$$ reasons
YourMoralLeader: I see a shrink every 3 months to adjust my meds
mizzmoze: read ,apply,pray,
YourMoralLeader: I need love at least once a week or two to stay level
mizzmoze: i could use a daily dose of real good love myself
YourMoralLeader: I find…does more for my mood, sense of self-esteem, well being than meds and almost anything
GROVER: if you r a truth seeker you surely see the Bush gov is lieing about 911
User GROVER was banned by broadcaster/admin.
User GROVER left the room.
mizzmoze: its the best natural relaxer,mood stabilizer,and natural pain relaxant
guest23: this music makes you happy… what makes you sad?
guest23: heavy metal?
YourMoralLeader: the feeling of futility, not moving ahead, makes me sad
mizzmoze: so you are busy all day writng and what else do you do luke?
mizzmoze: i work hard on healing
guest23: and if you stay in the same place
YourMoralLeader: mizz, that’s about it
YourMoralLeader: and studying how to monetize my work
YourMoralLeader: and reading/religion/socializing
mizzmoze: i live in the woods near the ocean,alot of peace and quiet,healing,nature and i love it
YourMoralLeader: I’ve always had one friend who just plays a huge role in my life… when cathy seipp died, that was a huge chasm. Now I have a new friend…
mizzmoze: i have also lost too many close family and friends
YourMoralLeader: my best friends tend to be writers or mental health pros
mizzmoze: I am a mental health counselor and a nurse
mizzmoze: work mostly with addictions
mizzmoze: and emergency room
YourMoralLeader: how do you like your work?
mizzmoze: I love to help people!
YourMoralLeader: great
YourMoralLeader: must be intense and interesting
mizzmoze: yes,very challengng
mizzmoze: alot of you ng kids hooked on the neddles
mizzmoze: needles
mizzmoze: ya know its tough fro them to quit or change
YourMoralLeader: why did you choose this work?
mizzmoze: itis a powerful drug,
YourMoralLeader: can sex/seduction be a drug? an addiction?
mizzmoze: my mother was a nusre and a nurterer
mizzmoze: my fathers pain became ours
mizzmoze: i healed and went on to help others
mizzmoze: give away what i was given so to say
mizzmoze: yes it can
mizzmoze: but it wont kill you
QuixoticLass: it can kill you if you aren’t careful
QuixoticLass: if you choose your partners poorly
maven: hey luke, i was hoping you were giving up posting these camstream dialogues …
mizzmoze: in comparism with social drugs i menat
mizzmoze: why??
mizzmoze: it might be his sanity
YourMoralLeader: cutting back
maven: ok, because otherwise I’ll have to find some other way to waste time at work
maven: you know, when you look at that angle, and with your beard getting grey, you are starting to look like Charlton Heston coming off of the burning bush encounter.
YourMoralLeader: calling my mom
maven: Perhaps you can recite the ten commandments slowly
YourMoralLeader: in australia
guest23: did you send flowers?
YourMoralLeader: only to women I sleep with
YourMoralLeader: I don’t sleep with my mom — against the Torah
guest23: before or after?
YourMoralLeader: varies 23
guest23: deflower during
maven: "you are not a god, you are not even a man" is the only line I can recall from the movie
maven: Come on, you ought to be able to do at least one Charlton Heston line with that beard.
guest23: no love ya?
guest23: kisses to the Mum that raised you
YourMoralLeader: how does one become the chief rabbi of Ukraine?
guest23: practice
maven: connections.
guest23: $$$$
maven: Is he Chabad?
QuixoticLass: First, you should be fluent in Ukranian
YourMoralLeader: never seen the movie maven
guest23: hard enuf following them
maven: Then stop calling yourself a jew
User guest14 (24.197.128.18) entered the room.
maven: its mandatory. like exodus, cast a giant shadow, if I were on guard duty I’d find that reason to think you were an infiltrating imposter
Sid: when were you last in Oz, Luke?
YourMoralLeader: 2000
maven: There are articles in Forward about controversies over the rabbinate in Ukraine bettween Chabad and others, but that name doesn’t show.
guest23: The Karliner chasidim are known for their custom to scream when praying. They are also known for their hospitality.
guest23: they scream when they are being hospitable
guest23: Matisyahu is now a Stoliner
