I Want To Be Big & Tough

I want to hear, “Luke, you are so big!”

I like to walk into a room and feel big. I like to go out with girls and feel big. I like to walk into shul and feel big.

I hate it when I feel small. I hate it when I walk into a room and feel little. I hate it when girls make me feel tiny.

I want to be big, bad Luke.

So I was watching the video from my Loma Linda University appearance and what struck me most was how my voice quavered. I guess I was scared to death. Frightened. Well, I knew that, but I didn’t realize it was so obvious. I wanted to be big bad Luke and I sounded so tiny and vulnerable.

I think back to all the debates I’ve participated in on the radio and my few public speaking appearances and I always came across with this trembling frightened little voice.

I think if I do more public speaking and do more TV and radio and write more provocative blog posts and make more videos and do more Alexander Technique and date hotter women and study more Torah and make more of my life, then my voice won’t tremble so much in public.

About Luke Ford

I've written five books (see Amazon.com). My work has been covered in the New York Times, the Los Angeles Times, and on 60 Minutes. I teach Alexander Technique in Beverly Hills (Alexander90210.com).
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