Blogging As Self-Defense

I’ve created this elaborate blogging empire because I can’t stand feeling vulnerable.

I remember as a kid not getting invited to birthday parties. I remember the big kids dunking me under water and holding my head there for about ten seconds.

I hated that!

I vowed that I would grow and find ways to defend myself.

I wanted to find a way to penetrate any gathering. In eighth grade, I realized that journalism was my perfect entre into society. It was my press pass to life. I could penetrate any world, from pornography to Orthodox Judaism, by saying I was a writer.


I tend to be uncomfortable in a crowd unless I’m a journalist or a photographer. Then I can be in the mix but keep a professional distance.

I hate the anxiety of wanting to be with people who don’t want to be with me. As a writer, I can penetrate anything and say it is for my craft. I’ve created a vehicle to get into places where people don’t want me. My work is powerful enough that a lot of people who don’t like me realize it is easier just to deal with me directly rather than to deal with my fury online. I get press passes. I get important people talking to me. I feel, at times, like an insider.

I know you’re not going to invite me to your party. So I’m going to say I’m a writer and I’ll talk to people who went to your party and then I’ll critique your party on my blog and I’ll feel a part of your party and superior to your party and I’ll feel better about my loneliness.

About Luke Ford

I've written five books (see My work has been covered in the New York Times, the Los Angeles Times, and on 60 Minutes. I teach Alexander Technique in Beverly Hills (
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