Category Archives: Personal

The Advantages Of Facebook

* I find it easier to be honest on Facebook than in real life because I can just say what’s on my mind on FB without worrying about how a particular person will interpret what I’m saying. In real life, … Continue reading

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Provoking People Means Hurting People

I’ve been working the 12 Steps hard. I’ve made lists of everybody, everything, and every idea that I resent and worked through the sheet, listing out the reasons I resent, how the person/place/idea negatively impacts my life, what role I … Continue reading

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My Favorite Manipulation Techniques

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Struggling With My Daddy Issues And Learning To Deal With Messy Emotions

Luke Ford comes to terms with his emotional addictions. He realizes that he’s a cripple. To heal, he’s working through in therapy his primary attachments, such as to his father. Luke struggles to accept his father’s love. Luke shudders at … Continue reading

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Reflections Upon My Opening Night Performance

I debuted my solo show “Eroticized Rage” February 3 at Whitefire Theater in Sherman Oaks (13500 Ventura Blvd) at 7pm as part of Solofest. Here are some my past writings and videos on my 12-step work for sex addiction. Here … Continue reading

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My Struggle In Orthodox Judaism

Luke Ford discovers he has Histrionic Personality Disorder aka Narcissistic Personality Disorder. He reflects on how this affected him as he tried to make his way in Orthodox Judaism in Pico-Robertson 90035, making himself a pariah in many of the … Continue reading

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I’m Often Flooded With Rage & Despair

I’ve never had emotions that prevented me from doing whatever was before me. That said, I’ve been feelings these tidal waves of rage and despair the past few weeks. I thought at first they were related to my therapy, readings, … Continue reading

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My Journey Into Orthodox Judaism

I first walked into an Orthodox shul (Knesset Israel Torah Center) in Sacramento in early 1993 on a Sunday morning to take a conversion to Judaism class with friends. The rabbi looked at me walking in with a yarmulke on … Continue reading

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Orthodox Judaism Vs Pagan Pleasures

I try to figure out my contradictory travels over the past 20 years. How did I embrace Judaism on the one hand and pagan pleasures on the other? Was I self-destructive or just trying to consume as much of life … Continue reading

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A Frustrating Day

I went to my mail box this morning to pick up my tax forms from my accountant and they’re not what I’ve been getting for 15 years. I leave angry emails and phone calls with my accountant and get an … Continue reading

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