What obsession or addiction have you suffered from?
Addiction to sex, love and fantasy. Since the age of seven when I learned I could sit in a chair and drift off into a daydream of doing great things, going on adventures, leading armies into battle, ruling a nation, and this would immediately numb my pain, fill me with excitement and adrenalin, and I’d just get lost in a haze. It was like a drug.
How did you originally get involved?
My parents were busy. They didn’t want me to bother them. I didn’t have friends around. I read a lot of books and it was easy to imagine myself stepping into these stories, such as Treasure Island, Coral Island, etc.
How long have you been doing this?
Since age seven.
Describe the satisfaction or joy that it brings or brought you?
It makes me feel even with life. All of my anger and frustration goes away. My pain is numbed. My frustration is taken away. I’ve had to absorb a lot of punishment and humiliation at the hands of women, particularly my step-mother, and now I get to dish out the pain or at least watch it acted out in porn. Watching a good sex scene is like watching my favorite team score a touchdown. Watching a good bukkake shower is like watching my favorite team score 14 touchdowns in 50 seconds. It’s orgasmic.
I can take all my pain, rage and humiliation at the hands of women, all the hundreds of hot women I’ve known who’ve ignored me or turned me down and refused to fuck me, and I can see women hotter than them get fucked 15 ways to Sunday in the most degrading ways possible, bitches got it coming.
How has it impacted you financially?
I’m not sure exactly. I’ve never made more than $50,000 a year and yet I obviously have a three digit IQ and most people as smart as me make good money. I’ve never been willing to part with much time and money in the pursuit of my addictions. I’ve long used my laziness to keep that in check. As a good friend once wrote of me, “Luke is a lazy womanizer. He can’t be bothered to put much effort into it.”
How has it impacted relationships with friends or family?
My inappropriate comments, tasteless jokes, raunchy behavior, revolting writing, shameful topics of obsession have hacked away at my bonds with others, leaving me isolated and lonely. My bosses and my rabbis say I’m not controllable. I was born to be wild. I live in rebellion to my parents. I’m doing battle with them every day even though they live in Australia and I live in California.
Have you been through any sort of treatment?
