I wonder how many hours I could go without seeking mirroring? Am I capable of a mirroring fast? Please let me know what you think.
I’m a bit attention whore. I don’t have a solid sense of self. I keep looking to other people to tell me who I am. They inevitably get tired of doing this and I get disappointed.
So I wonder if I could experiment with deliberately doing nothing to seek attention? I wonder if I could get in touch with my highest self and just live that an hour at a time.
As much as possible, I’d like to let go of my attention-seeking ways. It inevitably gets me into trouble. When I have true connection with people, I feel much less desirous of cheap internet attention. When I’m disconnected, I like to log on to Facebook to get a virtual connection. It’s a crutch to help me through lonely times.
Right now I’m tired. I’m weak. My feet hurt. I need to stay off them as much as possible for a month to get over my plantar fascitis. So I’m at home. I could pick up the phone, but instead I’m blogging.
