On his radio show yesterday, Dennis Prager said he did not understand why people made malicious computer viruses. What’s the thrill?
I might be a bad person, because I immediately know the answer to this question.
Making viruses that hurt thousands of computers makes a person feel significant. He thinks, wow, I took down all these people.
It’s the same reason that people light forest fires, put poison in aspirin, and wreak general havoc. It’s the same reason Hitler and other leaders wanted to conquer the world — it makes you feel like a big shot.
When my website is down, I feel like I have lost a lot of my power. My sense of self is so weak, I rely heavily on these external things. I can’t be happy in just myself. I have to accomplish things. I have to have influence and readers and fans. Attention is my substitute for love.