When I was young, I feared death. I knew many people who had died, including a friend my age. The outside world seemed like a frightening place. I knew I had some reckless tendencies and they scared me.
As I moved through my 30s and 40s, I increasingly retreated from life. I went out less. I went to fewer parties. I dated less.
Underearning is a disease of hiding and biting.
A great thing about getting older is that I rarely feel dread. My life is more calm than it has ever been because I try to avoid things that to disturb my tranquility. I rarely think about death. I concentrate my blogging on inoffensive topics. I read improving literature. I develop my recovery and I meditate and I Alexander Technique. I look forward to football season.