Category Archives: Addiction

Falling In Love

I fall in love way too easily, way too quickly, and way too intensely. I’m an easy target for mockery because I can’t help wearing my feelings on my sleeve. I’ve had long stretches of my life feeling helpless, feeling … Continue reading

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Empathy Vs Ego

I remember training in a field where one teacher (alone among all the teachers) was not particularly interested in teaching us. He was a superstar in the field, and he would show up late 95% of the time, and when … Continue reading

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Sex Addiction Is Not Our Problem

Food addiction is not our problem. Debt addiction is not our problem. Alcohol addiction is not our problem. These are all but symptoms of our problem (a broken attachment system). Recovery from sex addiction does not equal a life without … Continue reading

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Resentment

I’m working Step Four and I’m having hard time listing any resentments because all resentments I develop are gone within a couple of days at the most. So my sponsor encourages me to list every resentment I’ve had recently that … Continue reading

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Do You Like Getting Honked At?

Driving home while listening to a talk on the Fourth Step, I came to a halt at a four-way intersection. I arrived behind the car on my left, but when the car in front of me drove through the intersection … Continue reading

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The Case Against Suicide

I am in five 12-step programs and sometimes I meet people who ask me why they should not commit suicide. I usually share from my experience. From 1988 to 1993, I was bedridden about 20 hours a day on average … Continue reading

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When Was I The Victim? When Was I The Perpetrator?

My mind naturally inclines to thinking one thousand times about when I have been the victim for every time it naturally inclines to thinking about when I was the perpetrator. I don’t like thinking about when I was a perpetrator. … Continue reading

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Staying Free Of Crippling Pain Requires The Maintenance Of My Spiritual/Physical/Psychological Condition

About six months ago, my back went out on me and I was bedridden for three days. During the first two days, I almost called 9-1-1 several times because it was a herculean task to stand up and to seat … Continue reading

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Clarity Creates Energy And Strength

I receive many outreach calls from my various 12-step programs, but I have to be careful of my time and my energy because most calls I get are from people who want to share the mess, not the message, and … Continue reading

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Recovery

When I collapsed into six years of largely bedridden Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (CFS) between 21-27 (1988-1994), my peers fled from me (while most people in the second half displayed considerable empathy towards me). I gradually realized that fear of illness … Continue reading

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