{"id":878,"date":"2007-09-20T01:45:09","date_gmt":"2007-09-20T08:33:09","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/lukeford.net\/blog\/?p=878"},"modified":"2007-12-06T16:08:27","modified_gmt":"2007-12-06T22:56:27","slug":"the-uninvited","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/lukeford.net\/blog\/?p=878","title":{"rendered":"The Uninvited"},"content":{"rendered":"

In second grade, I wasn’t invited to classmate Gavin Brown’s birthday party<\/a>.<\/p>\n

That really hurt. I understand why I wasn’t invited — because I’m a creep. But I didn’t like it.<\/p>\n

Thirty three years later, my social status has not changed and the pain that goes with that ostracism has not diminished. Not even a little bit.<\/p>\n

Tonight I stepped into a party and was promptly kicked out.<\/p>\n

That made me mad and I want to lash out at the people who hurt me. In fact, I have.<\/p>\n

Once a week, I engage in a communal meal. I sit in the same seat every week. Normally, I have a friend or two who sit with me. Sometimes a group of people choose to sit with me. Sometimes girls, cute girls, sit near me.<\/p>\n

But the past few weeks, I’ve eaten alone.<\/p>\n

I’ve been out on the wing, alone, and felt like a complete loser.<\/p>\n

That’s why I always carry a book around with me. I never know when I’ll be in a room where nobody will want to talk to me.<\/p>\n

I respect the reasons why people don’t talk to me. I just don’t like it.<\/p>\n

I remember a temple (Ohr Ha Torah) I attended nine years ago. A girl I was with on and off came one Sabbath.<\/p>\n

"Nobody wants to sit with you," she noted.<\/p>\n

After lunch, I got up to walk her out.<\/p>\n

"Don’t bother," she said.<\/p>\n

She didn’t want to be contaminated.<\/p>\n

My therapist suggested I call my memoir, "The Uninvited."<\/p>\n

I’m really lost without Cathy Seipp<\/a> to mother me.<\/p>\n

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