Fred emails: Reb yid,<\/p>\n
Been a lurking fan ever since the Protocols. While you gravitate towards Yiddishkeit, I am repelled by it. Not repulsed, as I once was, after being a ritualistic agnostic and feigning the part of a litvisheh yeshiveh bucher for years.<\/p>\n
I’ve purged myself of hatred towards this creed that attempted to keep me in the herd through fear and guilt.<\/p>\n
I never fell into the atheist trap however, as atheism requires faith tantamount to that demanded by any other religion.<\/p>\n
The more I study, physics\/maths\/cog-sci in particular, the more I recognize a being that transcends space and time. The question is whether such a being that created 10^1000 galaxies gives a shit about us, or is benevolent for that matter.<\/p>\n
On the other side of the coin, I content myself with the Hegelian\/Eastern concept of all life being fragments of a single entity – steadily growing aware itself along the arrow of time.<\/p>\n
For much time, I found my tachlis in studying the pure sciences. “Euclid, alone, hath gazed upon beauty bare”.<\/p>\n
But this is bullshit. Leonardo DiCaprio, alone, hath gazed upon beauty bare.<\/p>\n
And I have not. And when I am, I am used for my cunning linguist skills, exploited, and then tossed out.<\/p>\n
Being desired by beautiful women is my greatest motivator, and has been for a long time. Yet this has ever been beyond my reach. I’m the so called “nice guy”, or AFC, in PUA lingo. <\/p>\n
If I cannot achieve this goal in this incarnation, then life is worthless to me. It is a deal-breaker.<\/p>\n
I’ve read the Picture of Dorian Gray numerous times, and know that that road does not provide lasting happiness. Yet the gaping hole, pardon the double-entendre, in my life, its glaring absence makes it such a priority for me. It has triggered recurrent major depressive disorder.<\/p>\n
I’ve seen many of your posts describing you in this situation.<\/p>\n
Therefore I’m interested in hearing how you deal with this, having interviewed the most desirable women, a single one of whom could restore my passion for life.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Fred emails: Reb yid, Been a lurking fan ever since the Protocols. While you gravitate towards Yiddishkeit, I am repelled by it. Not repulsed, as I once was, after being a ritualistic agnostic and feigning the part of a litvisheh … Continue reading