{"id":151532,"date":"2023-09-10T04:13:43","date_gmt":"2023-09-10T12:13:43","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/lukeford.net\/blog\/?p=151532"},"modified":"2023-09-19T18:38:16","modified_gmt":"2023-09-20T02:38:16","slug":"the-turning-point","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/lukeford.net\/blog\/?p=151532","title":{"rendered":"The Turning Point"},"content":{"rendered":"

As I develop a list of my best blog posts and best videos<\/a>, I notice that it is only after February 2, 2020 that I consistently like my online production (I like most of my life choices after the summer of 2015, a turning point in my real life that only effectively translated into my online work in 2020). <\/p>\n

Cohosting a daily Youtube show with the brilliant Kevin Michael Grace<\/a> (he has at least a standard deviation of IQ on me) for nearly two years (ending January 31, 2020) created more compelling shows than anything I could make on my own, but I found I liked myself more when I moved on from that partnership (even as my viewership dropped to about a quarter of what it was with Kevin).<\/p>\n

Younger me was more energetic and risk-taking than post-2020 me. I don’t like myself as an activist. I’m unfair to people, I’m nasty, I’m repetitive, I’m shallow. I prefer myself in analyst mode. I like myself more when I focus on understanding what the world, not changing it. <\/p>\n

I had a girlfriend at UCLA at age 22 who told me, “You are so adorable when you try to change the world.”<\/p>\n

Not to me I’m not. <\/p>\n

Here are the key points in my ideological development:<\/p>\n

* I stopped blogging on the porn industry in October of 2007.
\n* Alexander Technique calmed me down beginning with my first lessons in 2008.
\n* I stopped playing around with women in 2010.
\n* I started my first 12-step program in 2011 and developed some emotional sobriety.
\n* Going on modafinil in 2013 gave me more mental energy.
\n* I began effectively managing my life in the summer of 2015 due to the addition of various 12-step programs devoted to managing your time and money.
\n* I read Fred Luskin’s Forgive for Good<\/a> book in 2017.
\n* I discovered Nathan Cofnas in March of 2018.<\/a>
\n* Reading Virtually You: The Dangerous Powers of the E-Personality<\/a> in April of 2018.
\n* This disastrous show: The Art of Debate w Jim Goad, Nick Fuentes, Baked Alaska, Irony Bros (12-22-18)<\/a>
\n* I began listening to Decoding the Gurus<\/a> in the middle of 2020.
\n* Reading philosopher Rony Guldmann<\/a> in 2022.<\/p>\n