{"id":143258,"date":"2022-04-07T17:08:35","date_gmt":"2022-04-08T01:08:35","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/lukeford.net\/blog\/?p=143258"},"modified":"2022-05-19T07:40:18","modified_gmt":"2022-05-19T15:40:18","slug":"ordinary-world-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/lukeford.net\/blog\/?p=143258","title":{"rendered":"Ordinary World (4-7-22)"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><iframe width=\"560\" height=\"315\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/K8QFLiqoWB4\" title=\"YouTube video player\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s 5:56 pm. I&#8217;m on my 2406 step of the day according to my iPhone. It&#8217;s 90 degrees. I&#8217;m listening to the Audible recording of the 25th anniversary edition of <A HREF=\"https:\/\/www.amazon.com\/Making-of-Atomic-Bomb-audiobook\/dp\/B01B1ZCG8G\/\">The Making of the Atomic Bomb<\/a> by Richard Rhodes.<\/p>\n<p>Passover begins in eight days, so I&#8217;ll have lots of face to face contact then. No need to push myself tonight to go to yoga or to a 12-step meeting or to a Torah class or to a meetup or to a sports bar or to some awkward friend or acquaintance thing. I have my books and my poetry to protect me.<\/p>\n<p>I see some awkward people ahead and so I take a sudden right and go past five Mexican tree trimmers sitting in the shade. I nod.<\/p>\n<p>Up ahead is a young girl handing over a robot bag of her stuff to a 40-something fat guy behind a Prius. A young woman walks up to the kid trailed by another fat guy. I wonder what would happen if I merged with this woman, if my life merged with hers and we ended up looking after the kids together and having the in-laws over and my time would be no longer my own, I&#8217;d just be another dad. I smell her deodorant and it is familiar, I&#8217;ve smelt it dozens of times before when I&#8217;ve been normal and it smells like mediocrity. <\/p>\n<p>Related posts:<br \/>\n* <A HREF=\"https:\/\/lukeford.net\/blog\/?p=130767\">The road to recovery<\/a><br \/>\n* <A HREF=\"https:\/\/lukeford.net\/blog\/?p=136900\">Our Problems Are Not Our Problems, They\u2019re Just Symptoms Of Deeper Problems<\/a><br \/>\n* <A HREF=\"https:\/\/lukeford.net\/blog\/?p=136247\">With or without you<\/a><br \/>\n* <A HREF=\"https:\/\/lukeford.net\/blog\/?p=133894\">I\u2019m Dysfunctional, You\u2019re Dysfunctional: The Recovery Movement and Other Self-Help<\/a><br \/>\n* <A HREF=\"https:\/\/lukeford.net\/blog\/?p=133768\">Sham: How the Self-Help Movement Made America Helpless<\/a><br \/>\n* <A HREF=\"https:\/\/lukeford.net\/blog\/?p=132822\">Bypass your self-destructive tendencies<\/a><br \/>\n* <A HREF=\"https:\/\/lukeford.net\/blog\/?p=132737\">A life that works<\/a><br \/>\n* <A HREF=\"https:\/\/lukeford.net\/blog\/?p=130933\">Bringing souls out of hiding<\/a><\/p>\n<p><em>But I won&#8217;t cry for yesterday<br \/>\nThere&#8217;s an ordinary world<br \/>\nSomehow I have to find<br \/>\nAnd as I try to make my way<br \/>\nTo the ordinary world<br \/>\nI will learn to survive<\/p>\n<p>Papers in the roadside<br \/>\nTell of suffering and greed<br \/>\nFear today, forgot tomorrow<br \/>\nOoh, here besides the news<br \/>\nOf holy war and holy need<br \/>\nOurs is just a little sorrowed talk<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>It&#8217;s 5:56 pm. I&#8217;m on my 2406 step of the day according to my iPhone. It&#8217;s 90 degrees. I&#8217;m listening to the Audible recording of the 25th anniversary edition of The Making of the Atomic Bomb by Richard Rhodes. Passover &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/lukeford.net\/blog\/?p=143258\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[26369,21],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-143258","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-addiction","category-personal"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/lukeford.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/143258","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/lukeford.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/lukeford.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lukeford.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lukeford.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=143258"}],"version-history":[{"count":9,"href":"https:\/\/lukeford.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/143258\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":143435,"href":"https:\/\/lukeford.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/143258\/revisions\/143435"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/lukeford.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=143258"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lukeford.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=143258"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lukeford.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=143258"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}