I’m working Step Four and I’m having hard time listing any resentments because all resentments I develop are gone within a couple of days at the most. So my sponsor encourages me to list every resentment I’ve had recently that lasted more than 24 hours.<\/p>\n
So I’m driving down the Ten freeway today behind a driver with his left blinker on for miles and I’m getting increasingly annoyed at the dope and when the lane to my right opens up and I can pass him, I have to fight my normal inclination to turn and give a dirty look to the idiot driver (unless he looks dark and dangerous). Now I’m traveling at about 60mph so even a useless glance to the left is a dangerous thing and with God’s grace, I don’t do it. Normally I do look long and hard at bad drivers, and that doesn’t do them much good, doesn’t do me much good, and puts other drivers at risk.<\/p>\n
I think this is a good example of the destructiveness of resentment. Perhaps normal people can handle it (though it rarely if ever serves them), but for addicts it is deadly. <\/p>\n
The more occupied I get with other people’s bad behavior (when there is nothing I can do about it), the more distracted I get from living my own vision (or my understanding of God’s vision for me). <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I’m working Step Four and I’m having hard time listing any resentments because all resentments I develop are gone within a couple of days at the most. So my sponsor encourages me to list every resentment I’ve had recently that … Continue reading