{"id":11328,"date":"2009-10-01T16:33:54","date_gmt":"2009-10-02T00:33:54","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/lukeford.net\/blog\/?p=11328"},"modified":"2009-10-01T16:47:45","modified_gmt":"2009-10-02T00:47:45","slug":"i-talked-to-my-soul-this-afternoon","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/lukeford.net\/blog\/?p=11328","title":{"rendered":"I Talked To My Soul This Afternoon"},"content":{"rendered":"

A friend bought me a 75-minute session with Siri-Gian of SoulAnswer.com<\/a>.<\/p>\n

I arrived 20-minutes early and sat in the sun in my car and wrote down my thoughts.<\/p>\n

Then I went in the house and waited for her.<\/p>\n

She’s warm and cozy and motherly.<\/p>\n

She brought me into her office. She asked me what I wanted to find out.<\/p>\n

"I don’t really know," I said. "I hoped you could guide me.<\/p>\n

"I went to the opera last night for the first time. This soul-thing is a first time for me. I’ve never done anything like it. I don’t believe in talking to your soul and I don’t not believe. In this respect, I’m agnostic.<\/p>\n

"I’d like to know if **** is good for my soul.<\/p>\n

"I’m nearing the end of my first year of training to become an Alexander Technique teacher. I want to know if this is good for my soul.<\/p>\n

"I’m having a lot of money difficulties.<\/p>\n

"But my main problem is my inability to connect with others. I tend to want to sit back and analyze others and think myself smarter than them and this gets in the way of my connecting.<\/p>\n

"I hate ***. I’ve built my whole life around hating ***. If I meet anyone who reminds me of ***, I want to destroy them on my blog."<\/p>\n

"Would you like to let that go?" Siri-Gian asks.<\/p>\n

"Yes. What I’m doing is not working. I need a new direction."<\/p>\n

She has me lie down on a table. She starts pressing on my chest. It hurts. She says it will feel better by the end of the session.<\/p>\n

She takes my right arm and bends it back. It hurts.<\/p>\n

She pulls out a tape recorder and starts asking me questions.<\/p>\n

She asks me several times if my soul is ready to answer.<\/p>\n

I don’t know what to say. This feels a little bit like my attempt at automatic writing<\/a>, which was a complete failure.<\/p>\n

I don’t know where my soul is. I don’t sense it answering her question. I don’t want to be a party-pooper so after a while I say, "Sure."<\/p>\n

I feel warm. My body buzzes.<\/p>\n

Siri-Gian asks me a bunch of questions. I don’t sense answers coming up from my soul. I just get pictures in my head.<\/p>\n

At first, I picture I’m waist-deep in the water looking at an island reminiscent of the TV show LOST<\/a> (I just saw 20 minutes of this about three weeks ago).<\/p>\n

Then this picture intercuts about every second with me walking through the jungle in the island.<\/p>\n

Then I see myself walking through downtown Los Angeles at night. Then I see various pictures of my opera date.<\/p>\n

Then I see my dad looking pained and silent while I lie in a field of clover bathed in sunshine.<\/p>\n

I talk about all the people who’ve done me wrong and Siri-Gian asks me if I want to forgive them. I say sure. We go through each person and each wrong and I forgive.<\/p>\n

This becomes really intimate and after an hour or so when it is time to sit up and drink a glass of water, I’m ready to flee.<\/p>\n

I think I proposed that I’d be more compassionate towards human frailty, including my own, and that I would use humor in my writing.<\/p>\n

I haven’t heard the sound file yet.<\/p>\n

Here’s the follow-up protocol<\/a>.<\/p>\n

I feel peaceful and energized. My chest don’t hurt no more.<\/p>\n

I think I’ll go to yoga.<\/p>\n

Sat nam.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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